Stellas POV
I have been thinking a lot about what Kelly said, he deserves to be with someone who can give him all that he wants, and right now I don't think I'm the one that can give him that. I agreed to meet him so I can talk to him and tell him exactly how I feel.
I waited outside his apartment and texted him where I am, He texted me back saying he will be home shortly, he was walking home from Shays, as he didn't want to drive. I lent against the wall and rehearsed in my head what I was going to tell Kelly.
"Hey, you okay" I hear from Kelly's voice as I look over at him walking towards me, I lean off the wall and cross my arms to try to keep warm as it is pretty cold this evening. I stand in front of kelly and look at him he looks back at me a little concerned
"I want to speak first..." I say as Kelly nods and puts his hands in his pockets
"I haven't changed my mind about kids and marriage, I just dont think I'm ready for that step yet, and I'm worried I won't ever be...I cant be the woman you want me to be, and it is not fair on you" I notice tears appearing in kelly's eyes so decide to just say it straight out rather than explain any further because I think he already gets what I'm about to say.
"kelly...." I pause and take a breath "love you...but I cant be with you anymore" I finally say as I look down a little not wanting to look at kelly, knowing it will break me seeing him upset, I wait for him to respond but he doesn't so I look at him one last time before I turn around and start walking to Gabby's apartment.
as I walk away I feel a tear roll down my cheek as I wipe it away, have I possibly just let the best thing that ever happened to me go, Yes, but I did it because I love him, he wants what I cant promise to give him, I would rather him find someone who can give him all that, and make him happier.
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Kellys POV
I'm so glad she agreed to meet up, I needed to tell her I didn't care anymore that she didn't want marriage or kids, I wanted her as she was, I would rather have a life with her than a life without her. what is marriage anyway other than a piece of paper and a ring...
I see her standing against the wall to my apartment block and I walk over to her, she looks deep in thought. "Hey, you okay" I ask a little concerned as her eyes look a little bloodshot like shes on the verge of crying.
she stands in front of me and asks if she can speak first, I nod and put my hands in my pocket as I listen to her...
her tone and choice of words give me a clue as to what shes about to say, and theres nothing I can do to stop it, she seems to have already made up her mind. If only she knew I had a change of heart. but I just couldn't find the words in me to speak. I watched her turn around and leave, I closed my eyes to stop the tears from flowing as I stood there for a few more moments before I headed up to my apartment.
the second I opened the door, stella's scent hit me from when she sprayed this morning, it still lingered around for a while each time, I went over to the sofa and I sat on something, I reach under the pillow and pull it out, it was one of her chargers. I put it on the table as I see a set of her ear rings. I exhale deeply, she is everywhere, everything here will remind me of her, and it wont help that I will still have to work with her, how am I supposed to get over her.
I decided to go to bed, the bed suddenly feeling 10 times bigger than usual and also a lot colder, I already miss her cold feet pressed against me and my face full of her hair. I grab the pillow she would normally lay on and wrap my arms around it as I pretend to be cuddled up to her, her scent on the pillow helping me imagine that she was here.
I close my eyes tightly as I grip the pillow tight and for the first time in a while I break down, crying uncontrollably. I was madly in love with this woman and I let her get away.
this is going to be a rough next few weeks...months maybe, I just dont see me ever getting over Stella. No one will ever come close to her, if its not her then I dont want anyone else.
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Stellaride - A CinderStella Story
Fanfictionwhat if Leslie Shay never died. Her college room mate friendship is rekindled when Stella joins the firehouse, shay decides to play cupid with Stella and her new room mate Kelly, only to learn Stella is already married. is this a love story that...