Dream Class (Ale fanfiction)

Chapter 5:2.2

"I'm sorry Jho, I have tried... But.."

"You dont need to say sorry Nics. It's fine. I've finally accepted that this is really my fate... At mahirap talagang baguhin ang desisyon ng daddy ko." Malungkot kong sabi sakanya.

What happened earlier, does not even change my father's decision. He was firm about his decision of us getting married. His decision is final and whatever his mind put into it, it will happen no matter what.

I felt his arms around me. He hugged me gently. I couldnt do anything but to hug him back. Maybe it is better to really accept my fate... My fate.. na hanggang dito nalang ako. Hanggang dito nalang ang kung ano man ang meron samin ni Bea.

"Nico, iho... Let's go home." We heard his mother said. Agad namang humiwalay ito sa pagkakayakap sakin.

"Will you be okay here?" Nico asked me.

"I'm fine. You should go." I said which earned me a nod. He smiled at me and kissed my forehead bago ito tumayo at umalis kasama ng parents nya. We became close since the day that we talked about... US... in the future. Yes, he was so persistent to be married with me, but when I told him I loved someone else, it made him realized that he cannot force me to love him. He confessed to me, na matagal na syang may gusto sakin and because of that, he developed the desire to be tied down with me.

When our parents learned about it, they didnt hesitated to arrange our meet ups and our engagement. They see it as a gateway para lumakas ang kani-kanilang mga negosyo by means merging their companies through us, getting married.

He feel sorry for me, especially when he learned how my father treated me... especially when I started seeing Bea behind their backs. I feel guilty for her... nang dahil sakin ay nasasaktan sya. Nang dahil sakin ay nangyayari ang mga bagay na tu sakanya.

I wont deny anymore. Since that day we have been together, I cannot stop myself... especially my heart... from developing something with her. Because of her persistence... and also stubbornness, I started to feel things I have not felt for a very long time since the tragedy in my life happened. She helped me find the happiness again. I feel happy... beyond happy especially when she reciprocated my feelings for her. 

When I found out what feelings I have for her, I was scared at first, because I thought, she just see me as a friend... Yes, she's caring, loving, and the same funny Bea we know, and I was afraid because she's like that not just with me but also with others.

AT first, I wanted to deny my feelings for her... I wanted it to stop, but whenever I decided to make it stop, it makes me fall in love with her even more until I just give in with it, hoping that it was just for the mean time and it will vanished as the time comes. But that didn't happened. 

Who doesn't fall in love in such beautiful soul? She was actually too pure for my liking. She's very thoughtful and attentive not just with me but also with the others. She's always there for me whenever I needed her... and never ever complain with my stubbornness and snob attitude. She always has her way to make me smile and laugh. And I admit that I love her... and that what makes me afraid.. for myself... and most especially... for her.

I sighed...

When we confessed our love for each other was that I became jealous of other girls who are obviously flirting with her. It made me furious... I am mad with those girls for flirting with MY BEA... Yes... MY... because she's MINE.. I am mad with her for being friendly and the oblivious one that makes me want to punch her face... but of course, I didn't.. I couldn't and most especially.. I am mad with myself.. because I cant keep myself from getting jealous with others...

I became silent that time... napansin nya siguro ang pagtahimik ko but she didn't said anything until we came back on the house. She asked me if I am upset or what.. I wanted to avoid her because I know for myself that I will get an outburst and snapped at her anytime... but she was so persistent to the point that I cannot hold it anymore and told her how I feel.