Dream Class (Ale fanfiction)

Chapter 5

Ella's POV

Kasalukuyan akong nasa dalampasigan ngayon. Nagpaparty na ang iba sa may malaking bonfire party ng resort na tu. I decided to be alone for a while to think and to have a peace of mind. Ang daming nangyari this past few weeks that makes my mind go crazy. I feel tired of seeing everything was taking its down fall at wala man lang akong maggawa. I know Amy always tells me that everything happens for a reason, I believe her, of course pero minsan talaga ay hindi ko maiwasang hindi mag-alala kung matatapos ko ba talaga tung mission na tu. Yes, I am doubting myself. I am doubting my capabilities to make everything right. I know God doesn't want that, but I can't help it.

And one thing I am worried about was Amy and my forgotten past. Because of this ay nagiging komplikado din ang lahat... Especially sa sarili kong pagkatao. At nagiging dahilan ng di namin pagkakaunawaan ni Amy and worse pag aaway namin.

Flashback....

Nakatingin ako sa papalayong sasakyan ni Gretchen. Sa totoo lang naaawa ako sakanya. Dahil alam kong masakit pa rin talaga ang nangyari sakanila ni Fille. I've heard their conversation last night. And actually, hindi ako tinawagan ni Jem... I lied to her and actually trespassed to her friend's home. Well, not really lied, coz I really didnt say yes when she ask me if Jem called me.We are just supposed to make sure that they got home safe. Amy said she was okay but I stood my ground and told her I need to see them if it was true. When we were about to leave, I felt the pain in my heart that's when I saw her that night sa may balcony at narinig ang kanilang pag-uusap nila ni Fille, I can't bear look at her from far.. doing nothing. Kahit na pigilan man ako ni Amy ay hindi pa rin ako nagpatinag.

Actually magdamag kaming nag abang sa labas ng bahay ng kaibigan nya. Amy was forcing me to go home at sya na muna ang magbabantay but I stood my ground. I wanted to make sure she was okay. Kasi alam kong kahit ganyan ang isang Gretchen Ho ay alam kong nasasaktan din sya katulad kung paano din nasasaktan si Fille.

"You okay?" tanong sakin ni Amy. Tumango naman ako.

"Yeah."

"Magiging okay din sya." I got my deep sigh.

"Kailan?" Disappointment was obvious from my tone.

"Time will come Ella. Time heals all wound." Napatango naman ako. Telling her that I understand dahil tama naman sya.

"Sana nga. Kamusta na nga pala si Rachel?" I asked her dahil tumawag ito kagabi needing some company sa hospital for abrupt appointment. Kaya iniwan nya muna ako at sya ang syang sumama kay Rachel.

"It gets worse from time to time." Amy replied

"Do you think she is okay?" I worriedly asked.

"You dont need to ask her that. She always says she is fine but we both know what future she holds."

"At yun ang kinakalungkot ko. If ever..." Magsasalita na sana ako but she cut me off ot wanting to hear another negative words coming out from me.

"Ella, lahat ng bagay ay may plano ang Diyos para dito. Wag natin syang kwestyunin hayaan natin sya sa mga planong ginawa nya para satin."

"I know. I just cannot believe... Bakit sya pa?" nagshrug naman sya.

"Malalaman din natin. It may have a purpose Elz, but for now, ang mission mo muna ang dapat nating pagtuunan." Sagot naman nya. Napatango naman ako telling her that I understand what she want to imply.

"Tama ka." pagsang ayon ko naman. Katahimikan an sunod na namayani sa pagitan namin. Naramdaman kong balak nya na sanang umalis nang magsalita ako. Maybe I need to get out of this from my head.

"Amz, pwede ba akong magtanong?" Naramdaman kong tumigil sya sa paglalakad.

"Kung magtatanong ka nanaman sa past mo. Please lang, save it." May inis pero malumanay nitong sabi.