Dream Class (Ale fanfiction)

Oneshot 2.6

Ella's POV

I can feel the cold breeze on my skin which made me hug myself more. I looked up in the sky and closed my eyes... hoping all my worries will go away.

"Are you sure about this Ms. De Jesus?" Dr. Sanchez asked me again.

"100% sure Doc." I answered her.

"Does Dr. Tajima know about your decision?" worry is visible in her tone. I looked at her and give her a small smile. "Ms. De Jesus, she should know about this... about your decision.. she has the right to know..."

"She knew about it Doc... Dont worry about her. She will be fine." she sighed after I said that.

"Hindi na ba talaga mababago yang decision mo Ella?" tanong nito sakin. I looked at her and I can see the sadness in her eyes.

"I know that you're scared but you are given a second chance Ella, bagay na hindi nakuha ng Dad mo... so why are you throwing that all away?... We are doing everything just to keep you alive Ella, but why?" I can hear the despair in her voice which made my heart hurt.

Alam ko kung gaano rin sya nasasaktan sa naging decision ko, why wouldn't she? She was my daddy's attending doctor. She knew how hard it was for my dad especially to me and my mom. Like Mae, she also did everything just to keep my father alive... she was also there when he died. She got devastated, too... And now, she is in the same situation again. I put her in this situation again..

"Mimi..." tawag ko dito. She looked so shocked when she heard it at agad kong nakita ang namumuong mga luha sakanyang mga mata. I went near her at agad na hinawakan ang kanyang mga kamay nginitian ito. A smile that contains the sadness, the pain and sincerity.

"It's been so long since I heard you calling me that..." she commented.

"I'm sorry Mimi.. I'm sorry if we always put you in this kind of situation over and over again. I'm sorry kasi lumayo ako sayo simula nung nawala si Daddy." agad nya naman akong niyakap. She hugged me tight and caressed my head. I can feel the longing and the love from that hug. It felt so warm and so comforting.

"HUssshh. It's not your fault..nor your dad's fault, it's never been your fault. Don't blame yourself, we both know na hindi mo tu gustong mangyari. Hindi natin tu gustong mangyari, pero andito na tu." I cried because of that. She's still my Mimi, my aunt, my father's sister. I regret distancing myself from her before why my father died and forget that just like me... nasasaktan din sya. Nawalan din sya ng kapatid.

"I'm sorry Mimi, for everything..." I said at kumalas sa pagkakayakap sakanya. "I'm sorry Mimi... kasi alam ko kung gaano kahirap para sayo at kina mommy ang nangyayari. Gusto ko lang gawing tama ang pagkakamaling nagawa ko sa taong mahal ko. Maybe through this ay kaya nya akong patawarin sa pang-iiwan ko sakanya."

"Ella...Leaving her was unintentional, you left not because you didn't care but because you have no choice and it was for the better naman. So please don't blame yourself, kung nalaman man nya ang reason mo, she would've understand and you didn't need to come up with this decision." Her words were so simple but have a point. But I don't want to burden her any further, tama na yung sakit na nadulot ko noon sakanya nung iniwan ko sya. It's better if she doesn't know.