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The Explaining

I met Summer like I said I would. We walked to my house, which was five minutes away, without saying a word.

Once we reached my place, I took her upstairs to my bedroom.
"I love your room." Summer said, beaming at me.
"Thanks." I mumbled. I sat on my bed and Summer sat down next to me.

"Okay so I'll explain first," She sighed.
"Huh?"
"Okay so I'm guessing now you had no idea why I started ignoring you?"
I shook my head.
"Well from the start I wanted to be your best friend, and I suppose Roxanne got there first. But Cali, she convinced me that you used me,"
"Used you?"
"Yeah, she said I only pretended to be your friend so you could be best friends with Roxanne,"
"Seriously?"
"Yeah and well....I was used rather harshly in the past," She sighed.
"Before I moved here two years ago, I lived in England too. I was at this new school and I had become best friends with this girl named Jodie. I told Jodie everything. I even told her about...." She trailed off.
"Look I'm going to tell you because I want to prove to you that you can trust me," Summer said, sighing deeper.
"I told three things I never tell anyone. I told her about how I didn't like eating, because I didn't want to get any fatter," She began.
I just started at her.
"Yeah, I have Anorexia," She said.
"Oh Summer I'm so sorry, I had no idea,"
"It's fine, and I also told her about the way my Dad used to hit me," She whispered. "And I told her that I was expelled from my last school,"
"What? Why?"
"Because I started acting out with my Dad abusing me, anyway that's not important. What's important is she was only using me. Someone told her they'd give her twenty pounds if she pretended to be my best friend and got my secrets out. She then told the whole school my secrets and got her stupid twenty pounds,"
"That's horrible!" I exclaimed.
"Everyone called me names. People mocked my Dad and me. Loads of people pretended to have an eating disorder and I was left confused, hurt and alone. I had no idea then that I had Anorexia of course, and well the principal found out what was going on and he recommended that I left the school and saw a doctor. Dad was in such a state when he realised that I had Anorexia. He had a drinking problem and that's why he always hit me. Mum went ballistic and phoned the police...a..and," she said as tears began to form in her eyes.
"And he was put behind bars for a sentence of three years. He's coming out of Jail in October but the jail is in England, so I haven't seen him since he was first put in. So that's why I was so upset when I thought you had used me. I thought the same thing was happening again,"she burst into floods of tears.
I put my arm around her.
"I'm sorry, I really had no idea. I understand why you ignored me now and about your behaviour in the bathroom a while ago when you confronted me," I giggled.
She did too.
"No offence but I think your behaviour was weirder. May? Code Red? Avalanche?" "Okay," I giggled even more, "Let me explain now,"
"Please do."

"So the week before my sixteenth birthday in August something tragic happened and it's why we moved. My birthday is September 1st so it was the week before that. My twin sister, who I was really close to named May went out to the the shop to get some bread and well she never came back," I said, fighting back tears.
"Oh my goodness! July I had no idea! I'm so sorry!" She began.
"No, it's fine, anyway Mum was pregnant at the time and it was hard on us all. We moved the week after my birthday to America. That's why I was a little late starting school. I was terrified to start school without May but you helped me out on the first day.
My sister Amelia was born on the 6th of September. And she was really sick when she was born. That's another reason why we moved to America. We were told that the doctors in this area could help as my parents did not want to lose another child. She's still really sick at the moment.
Anyway things were alright. No one but Amelia got any attention so I just got on with my life and then I had that breakdown in the bathroom. Code Red and Avalanche are mine and May's code words for major emergency. When I ran out crying I bumped into August. He cleaned me up and brought me to the office to be sent home. He told them I was sick.
Later that day he came around to my house to check up on me. He saw a picture of our family and asked about them. I told him about May and then well after he said a bit to stop me crying and then we...."
"Go on." Summer spurred me on.
"We kissed. More than once actually."
"Oh my GOSH!" Summer stared at me, open mouthed.
"After that Carmen came to our school. She put makeup on her face to make it look as if I'd hit her she and twisted my wrist on her first day. Ms Parker told me to wait outside her office and August started talking to me.
She caught him and he tried to get her to believe me, We just both ended up in detention and I got suspended. My parents didn't believe me either.
Kiki was going through a hard time as well. She was being terribly bullied by Carmen's sister, Carmel Smalls."
"Really?"
"Yeah and well my wrist hurt like mad but no one believed me so I lived with it. And when I came back to school at after school detention with August, Ms Parker was late so we got to talk. I started sneezing and went to grab a tissue but my wrist was so sore that I crumbled into a ball. I had a panic attack and banged my head. Then I blacked out." "Oh my gosh!"
"So when I woke up I was in the nurse's room but she was gone home early. It was just August looking down at me. I stared to panic and closed my eyes. He then kissed me. Carmel must have been outside the door taking a picture through the small window on the door.
I didn't mean to be doing anything wrong, I really didn't. I went home and got yelled at for faking about my wrist but Kiki was getting yelled at a lot worse. She had been expelled because of Carmel."
"Oh my goodness!"
"And well I didn't actually have my electronics then and that's when I saw the picture of August and I, I understood why Roxanne was ignoring me. I had a hard time after that because August went off with Roxanne and my wrist was killing me. I blacked out in front of Ms Carroll and finally went to the doctor. Then I didn't return to school after that. Christmas was horrible. Everything was a mess. My parents left us for a whole two hours without telling us where they went. Then a while after that I found out that my brother, Calum who's twenty now is going to move back to London to be with his girlfriend at the end of his collage year, " I said bursting into tears.
"Oh July, I didn't know you were suffering so much," She said, before giving me a big hug.

Well I suppose it was good. We did all the explaining that should have been done long ago. The explaining that would have healed some pain in the past. The explaining that would have helped us both. The explaining.

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