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What Was Going On

Roxanne did get me suspended. She got Carmen to put makeup on her face to create a huge cut and blamed me. Summer tried to stick of for me but it didn't work.

My parents were livid. Dad slapped me again but I got no apology this time. He just slapped me more. I decided to isolate myself from the family. They didn't care about me anyway.

I took on a new hobby after that. Two new hobbies actually.
The first one consisted of me sitting on my window sill and staring out of it for hours.

I refused to go anywhere. I just liked looking through the glass. I once sat there for six hours just staring. I would just think about May and how my life got so messed up.

Then I started think about how crap my life was. I thought about the horrible person I was. So I took up a second hobby.

I did it for the first time on the first Wednesday of my suspension. I was so sick of everything. Of myself and my life. I went into the bathroom and got out my raiser. I held it up and attacked my wrists. It felt good but painful. It was like I was punishing myself for all the terrible things I'd done.

For making August cheat on my old best friend.
For not telling anyone about Carmel bullying Kiki.
For crying over Calum leaving. How could o be so selfish?
For screaming at Summer.
For ignoring Amelia.
For not going to the shop instead of May.

The last one really set me off. I scraped at my skin harder. Letting the pain sweep around my body.

I did both hobbies everyday of my suspension. When I went back to school I wore a long jacket to hide the marks on my wrists. I covered them with concealer as well.

I continued to do my new hobbies daily after my homework. Summer notice the raiser hobby but she noticed me staring out my window all day.

Things got even worse at school. People called me names, spread rumours about me, destroyed any property of mine they got ahold of, pushed me in the corridors and so on. I hated school. So I started refusing to go there and stared out my window instead. Mom and Dad didn't notice me staying off school and when they did, they just thought I was sick. So I spent two weeks off school before Summer realised what was going on.