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Tougher

Calum's last week flew. It was also my last week of school. It was packed with exams. I couldn't wait for it to finally be the summer. Amelia's death had still left our family in tears. The tears were accompanied by shouting and slapping. Not my ideal home.

I wrote down my final answer on my exam sheet just as the final bell went. School was finally finished for the summer. I should have been happy but I knew Calum was leaving that night.

I walked over to my locker and began emptying it all into my bag. Roxanne and Carmen sashayed over. I sighed and continued emptying my locker.

"Hey July," Carmen smirked.
"How are you?" Roxanne smiled.
I ignored them and continued my task.
"You know it's a lot easier to torture you on Summer break," Roxanne sneered.
"Leave me alone," I sighed.

I put another book into my bag. Behind it there was a little, sea blue box with fake shells glued on. I smiled. It was a box I'd made with May when we were ten. It had a present from five very important people in my life inside, designed to help me conquer any challenges when I felt helpless. I put it in my locker ages ago to try and help me enjoy school better. It actually worked and I couldn't wait to bring it home and plop it on my night stand. While I was daydreaming Roxanne snatched it out of my hands.
"Roxanne give that back!" I cried.

She just laughed and opened up the box. First she pulled out a little handmade bracelet. It was woven from wool and had a charm on it which said 'Friends'. It was the friendship bracelet Summer made me. She had the same one except hers said 'Best'.
"That's so stupid," Carmen spat.
Roxanne laughed again and before I could stop her she took out a nail kit from her bag and grabbed a pair of nail scissors. She then snipped it into little pieces.
"No Roxanne!" I cried.

She then took out the next item. It was a charm of Big Ben connected on a metal ring to a Statue of Liberty charm. Calum had given it to me when I first found out he was moving to London. He wanted to show a link between the two and remind me that we were closer than I thought. Roxanne handed it to Carmen and she bent it up and threw it into the bin.
"STOP IT!" I cried.

I tried to get the box but Roxanne had it out if my reach and Carmen could easily hold me back. I wasn't very strong in that way.

Next Roxanne pulled out a tiny doll, smaller than the palm of my hand. The doll had blonde hair and little black eyes. She had a red line for a smile and she wore a blue dress with matching shoes. Kiki gave me that doll when May died to try and cheer me up. I called her Sabrina.
"Ooh a little dolly!" Carmen cried.
I tried to grab Sabrina but Carmen caught my arms. I could only watch in horror as Roxanne pulled off Sabrina's head and dropped her on the floor. It felt like she was slowly killing off everyone I cared about.

She then pulled out a pink rose charm connected to an oak tree charm. When May and I were little we gave each other a symbol. I was the rose and May was the tree. Then when we were seven we saw the two charms in a shop. I remember how happy we were when we saw it. When May died I connected her tree charm to my rose charm and put it in the box. It may seem stupid to you but it was special to us. My heart felt like it was about to stop when she picked it out.
"ROXANNE NO!" I sobbed.
"Ooh Baby's crying!" Roxanne said before bending it and throwing it in the bin along with my present from Calum.

"Oh look one more thing," Roxanne sneered.
She took out a silver chain. The necklace had only one charm, a silver music note. It was my special necklace from August. I actually wore it a lot but I usually put it back in the box when I wasn't wearing it.
"Please Roxanne!"
She just laughed and pulled the chain until it broke. Then she got the box and pulled all the shells off. After that she got a marker and wrote a lot of rude words and other horrible things across it. There was nothing I could do. Eventually Carmen let go of my hands and walked off with Roxanne. I was left on my own in tears. All the items were so precious to me.

I finished emptying my locker and collected all my broken trinkets. I put them back into the ruined box as tears still fell from my eyes. I know some people would call me stupid to be crying over my lost items when I could easily get more but they held memories. They held happiness. Buying another one wouldn't feel the same. It wouldn't comfort me in times of sadness. It would only remind me of how the original ones got ruined. And May couldn't exactly come back from the dead to find the suvonier shop and buy two more charms could she? I felt so helpless. It was if Roxanne and Carmen were reminding me that my life would only get tougher.