Secret Love Nest

The Founded Ring pt 2

When in doubt, go to a Goddess.

This is the answer I came out with when I reach my limit. I'm still not talking to Qing. Actually I am actively avoiding him. It's been a week now after I found out that he kept the ring I lost and we had a row where I got so upset I cried.

I don't know what to do anymore so I decided to take another person's opinion on the whole losing my ring scenario. And the closest I can ask is our favorite Goddess living across from us. So I went there to hide from Qing and talk to her.

I explained the whole thing to her. From me losing the ring, to trying to find it desperately, to him taking me to a romantic dinner and his show of concern for me until the blow up a week ago.

Me: (upset all over again) He said it was just a joke.

Goddess: (sneering) Buy him a new joke book, his jokes are not funny anymore.

Me: (shoulders slumped) He said he was teaching me a lesson.

Goddess: (choking and almost spilling her drink) And he is still alive? Wow, you DO love him.

Me: (looking at her sadly) I should have killed him, right? No one can blame me. I mean, even the judge will understand, right?

Goddess: I wouldn't say that. But if you plea temporary insanity, you will have a great chance of winning the case.

Me: (sighing) I hate him.

Goddess: No you don't. You and I knew the truth, you are crazy for that guy.

Me: Yeah I am. (Can't even deny, I'm pathetic)

Goddess: And he is deeply, madly, out of this world in love with you.

Me: (looking surprise) How can you say that? After what he did to me? (Pouting) He doesn't love me, that asshole!

Goddess: (shaking her head) One look at him and I know that he is desperately in love with you. He looks like someone died on him. These past week, everytime I saw him coming in and out of the elevator, he looked like in mourning. Sad is not enough word to describe how miserable he is with you not talking to him.

Me: But I don't know how to forgive him this time. Honestly, I also want to stop feeling upset but I really don't know how to do it.

Goddess: Because you didn't expect it from him...this kind of betrayal.

Me: (jolted) That's it! That's the word I am looking for. Betrayal! I feel betrayed by his actions. Why would he betray me like that?! (Stomping my feet)

Goddess: I don't know. You are the one in love with him, you should have some idea of how the man's mind works.

Me: He is a playful person, but never cruel. He liked to joke around, playing prank esp on me but not this kind of mean thing. I don't know what possessed him to play this stupid, cruel joke on me.

Goddess: Maybe he felt hurt when he saw the ring you lost on his car. When people are hurt, they became irrational and stop thinking logically. Maybe he made that split second decision of teaching you a cruel lesson for losing the ring. But he probably didn't intended to hurt you this much or to take it this far. I know that boy is crazy for you too, crazier if I may say so.

Me: (hang my head on the back of her luscious colored sofa) What should I do now? I don't know how to move on from this.

Goddess: If I can make a suggestion. Start by looking at him. I know you are avoiding him, maybe you should start by not avoiding him anymore. Stop hiding from him, you didn't do anything wrong. He is the wrongdoer, so stop punishing yourself. Do what you usually do, act normal again.

Me: Should I?

Goddess: (nodding) Take that small step forward. It's better than being stuck, not moving and wondering what to do. Take that step closer to him and watch him jump to earn your forgiveness.

Me: (thinking for a long time) (after so much silence I stood up) Fine! I will do that! I am a man after all. No more hiding! Yes I will do that!

Goddess: Good! Now finish your tea so you can go back to your man. I had enough of your drama.

Me: (smiling at her) Thank you. If this turn out okay, I will owe you one. I'll treat you to any restaurant of your choice.

Goddess: So when we are spotted, we will create an instant scandal. Oh I can see the headlines now "Actress with her new boytoy"

Me: (grinning cheekily) Or "Newbie with his hot date" (I winked at her)

Goddess: Stop flattering me and get out of here. Go to your man and fix this drama of yours. Go before I get tempted to steal you from him.

Me: Fine fine I am going. And you can't steal me away from him. You are missing some essential body parts to make me happy. What can I say, I am a change man now.

Goddess: Don't worry I know pegging!

Me: (hanging on her door, frowning) What is pegging?

The Goddess just laugh out loud. I get out of her unit, stood in front of ours and took a deep breath.

I can do this. It's been a week already. It had gone long enough, this misery between us. We have to find some way to fix this drama, just like what the Goddess suggested.

And it had to start with me. So I took another deep breath and open our door.