Secret Love Nest

Professionalism

Grumble...grumble.

That's the only thing you can do when you have to get up at 2am in the morning because your call time is at 4am.

Life of an actor eh...

I mean, a lot of people think that being an actor is a glamorous job. You won't be wrong. This job is fashionable, flashy and fabtastic. It has is perks and moments, no doubt about that.

But what people seem forget is that there is another face in this show business world. Cutthroat, cruel, and it can demand your everything.

Being a newbie, I have to work doubly hard to prove that I can survive in this profession that I chose. I have my regrets, of course, but I love my job so if the director of my new drama says "Dayu, you have an early call time tomorrow. Be at the location at 4am" I, of course, get out of bed at 2am to be at that location on time! Professionalism, that's a key to surviving.

But my bedmate is not making it easy for me this morning...

Qing: (holding me tighter as I try to get up) Don't go...it's still early.

Me: (throwing his arm away from me) (grumbling sleepily) I have no time for this...

I go to the bathroom. Take a quick shower, get dressed without bothering to blowdry and style my hair (I will be extra nice to the make up and grooming crew of the drama) then I went to the kitchen to see if I can take something with me as a way of breakfast.

I was surprised to see Qing, with hair still sticking up and sleepy eyed standing in front of the coffeemaker.

Me: Why are you up? Go back to bed.

Qing: (looking at me) I will be quick, wait for me to get dress then I will drive you to your location.

Me: (surprised again) What? No! I will be fine with my manager and assistant.

Qing; (yawning) Call them and tell them to go there first. I will drive you there myself.

Me: Qing ah

Qing: Dayu

Me: (hands on waist) And if someone from the production recognize your car?

Qing: (squinting) I will use the other car. The heavily tinted one, and I will not go out.

Oh right, the other car, cause he got like two more cars aside from the one he usually use when he has a schedule. But still, with his condition, he can't drive.

Me: (walked to him) (hugged his waist) I know what you're doing. Thank you, I appreciate it. But you are tired. You had  a long day yesterday, how can you possibly drive now? Don't be ridiculous, you have to rest. I will be fine. Go back to bed. (I push him towards our bedroom)

Qing: (resisting) But Dayu

Me: I will be fine. Besides you are not in the best condition to drive. Nope! Rest. I'm fine, truly! I really appreciate your offer though.That's so sweet of you. (I push him on the bed and the fact that he dropped there like a cut log just goes to show how tired he is)

Qing: (half of his face pressed on the bedsheet) Message me when you got there safely.

Me: I will. (Leaning down to kiss his exposed cheek) Rest big guy. Love you.

Qing: Hu humm (and he was down again. Good thing I speak sleepy so I understood his reply)

I left after putting everything I will possibly need on my back pack. I checked on him again, satisfied to see him sleeping then I left to go to work.

While on the way to the location with my crew, I can't help but smile thinking about him. Sometimes he thinks he can do everything. He forgets that he is just human too, like all of us, he has his limits and he gets tired too.

But he trusts me more now to take care of myself. You should see him at the start of our relationship, protective will be too tame of a word to describe him. He was practically barricading me.

I see it on his eyes a lot. That mantra of "I have to take care of Dayu". Now that side of him calmed down a little. He trusts me more, listens to me more, willing to let me do things on my own more. And I like it. It means we are growing to trust and rely on each other as the day passes.

Sometimes I get scared you know. I heard and read a lot of horror story. About people in a romantic relationship getting too comfortable with each other they don't feel excited anymore so they search for "excitement" on a form of an affair or such thing.

Are me and Qing getting too comfortable at each other? Will our relationship turn like that? Excitement gone and we search for it in other people? That would be sad...

I refuse to think like that. I want to think that instead of being comfortable with each other, we are just trusting each other more. That we are not falling into any routine, we are just building our foundation so it can be stronger. I wanna think that way. I wanna trust us that way.

I am overthinking again, right? Ha ha ha...sorry, I warned you all that I do this all the time. Overthink and worry about stuffs. But I will stop now.

Besides I do trust Wang Qing and myself. I think loyalty is built inside both of us. And anyway, I won't know what will happen in the future, if we will last or if we will break up, but I am sure about one thing: Wang Qing will always be a part of my life. He will always have a piece of my heart. That I will be happy walking on this Earth as long as I know that he is alive and well.

And I am confident to say that he also feels the same way.