Secret Love Nest

Run In with an Ex pt3

Tonight I wait for Qing to come home. He was not answering his phone the whole day. I've gone to work but my mind was not fully immersed in practicing for my upcoming stage show.

I decided to cut the practice short before I got into an accident because of my thoughtlessness. I apologized to my crew and treat them with some snacks before I send them home.

I got home. Look for something I can prepare for dinner. Maybe a favorite of Qing. When I saw that I am missing some ingredients, I ran to the nearest supermarket to buy some stuffs.

I made dinner. Took a shower and wait for Qing to come home. But dinner time passed, bed time passed too and still no Qing in sight.

I am starting to get worried. I don't want to think or let my mind wander to things like "accident" or "him with someone else".

For the first time in a long while, I stopped myself from overthinking.

I sighed. Look at my phone and made the call.

It was close to midnight when Qing entered our home. I stood from my seat on the couch when he entered the living room.

Qing: You are still awake.

Me: No. This is my hollogram. The real me is back in Heilongjiang, meeting my ex.

I got the response I want. Qing getting annoyed.

Qing: (turn to leave) I have no time for your wiseass. I am tired...

Me: I called her back.

Qing stopped walking. He turn back to look at me.

Me: (shrugging) I did what you asked. Last night and today, as I wait for you to come home, I think and I think if I want to be with someone like you. Possessive and jealous. I don't think I can Qing...

Qing paled. He walked to me.

Qing: Are you saying you can't be with me?

Me: (nodding) I don't like to be with someone who won't trust me.

Qing laughed bitterly.

Qing: Is this you turning the table on me?

Me: (shaking my head) No. I love you. I even like your possessiveness. But I can't excuse your jealousy Qing. I never gave you any reason to be jealous. I did what you want that night. I called and message you every hour, just to accomodate you. I considered your possessiveness on me. But your jealously, I can't take it.

Qing: I see...

Me: Do you know why I don't get jealous Qing. It's because of you.

Qing: (frowning) Me?

Me: (nodding) You never gave me any reason to be jealous. I feel secured with your love for me. Your possessiveness showed me that you love, want and need me and only me and no one else. Why do I need to be jealous about?

Qing got quiet. I walked to him and wrap my arms on his waist.

Me: (looking up at him) Don't I do the same thing for you? Don't I make you feel secured with my love that you have to be jealous? Huh?