An Ageless Love (Maui x Tamatoa Fanfic)

Apologizing To My Baby

Apologizing To My Baby 

Chapter 70 

Maui's POV 

 To be honest with you, I really don't know why I freaked out so much when Tama asked me about whether or not I wanted to have a child with him. He's the love of my life. I shouldn't hesitate to want to do anything with him. It's just having a child is a major responsibility. Plus I'm not exactly the definition of a fatherly figure. I know Tama's was rough too but mine was far worse. At least he had parents for a little while, I never got to have them period. They threw me into the sea just moments after I was born. If that isn't sad, I don't know what is. 

  I really need to apologize to Tama. Even though he had a smile on his face, I could see the hurt in his eyes. I can tell that he really wants this so badly. I don't want to disappoint my baby. Nothing would hurt more than disappointing him. I walk back to our hut and find Tama lying in bed awake, staring up at the ceiling. I notice dried up tears on his face and my heart breaks. I made him sad. I caused my baby pain. Tama eventually notices me and puts on another smile. I love him so much but I feel like smacking his smile right off his face. "Tama please don't put on a fake smile. Tell me what's on your mind." His smile disappears and is replaced by a frown. "I really want to have a child Maui. It doesn't to be right now, but eventually, I want to have a little boy or girl that resembles us running around in our home. I want a family Maui. I really do." 

   I sit in silence taking Tama's words before responding. I take his hands in mine and look deep into his eyes. "Tama, I want nothing more than to make you happy, but I need some time. I've done some thinking myself and I would like to have a child, just not right now. Part of it is because we just got married and the other part of it is because I'm scared that I'm going to be a horrible father." Tama laughs sadly. "I fear the same thing about myself. My demons still cause me to doubt myself all of the time." I nod in agreement, completely understanding what that's like. He puts a hand on my shoulder. "I think that we just not to stop being so hard on ourselves and give it time like you said. When the time comes and we go forward with this process, we will be ready. We will be wonderful fathers Maui. Sure we won't be perfect, but we will love our child with all of our heart and make sure that they are happy and safe under our care." I pull Tama towards me and hug him tight. "I love you Tama. You always know exactly what to say to make me feel better." An adorable giggle escapes from Tama's incredible lips. "I love you too Maui and the same goes to you." I close the distance between us and kiss the love of my life. 

Hoped that you guys liked this chapter! :) -Mary