Secret Love Nest 2018

Little Mister Sunshine pt1

Tell me everyone, am I required to be always accomodating because I am an actor and a singer?

I mean, I understand about being nice and polite to people all the time, but you don't really expect me to smile like...all the freaking time, right?

I am in a dilemma.

You know, the drama I am currently shooting, right? Well, to achieve the certain look my character needed, I have to sit with a hair stylist for two hours and be dressed properly for one hour.

That is three hours of preparation, people. Three hours! Three freaking hours. I also have to memorize my lines, know my blockings, internalize my emotions and listens to the last minute instructions of the directors and staffs of the production.

It's tiring. I get tired too. I am human too.

So Qing said...

Qing: You don't have to smile at them if you don't feel like smiling.

Me: (distress) But they are my fans.

Qing: And so? You have greeted them politely. It's not like you ignored or snobbed them.

Me: I know...but they waited for me. The least I can do is be nice to them.

Qing: (outburst) You have been nice to them!

Me: (suddenly teary) Why are you being mad at me? (Sniffing) I already feel miserable you unfeeling baboon! Stupid Wang Qing.

So I...how to say this...

I cried.

I full out sobbed and broke down in front of Qing who sighed exasperatedly before coming closer to hug me.

Qing: I cannot believe you. What is happening to you, love?

Me: (sniffing against his shoulder) I don't know. I just feel...so sad all of a sudden. For myself. For my fans.

Qing: (leaning out to give me a concern look) Do you think this is a start of depression?

Me: (alarmed) You think I am depressed?

Qing: I don't know. I am not a psychiatrist.

Me: (sniffing still) Should we go to a professional?

Qing: Do you want to talk to a professional?

Me: (hiccuping) I don't know.

I bawled out again. Qing hugged me tighter.

(Oh Dayu ah...)

Yeah, I know. I have moments like this too. Why am I writing this here, when it's not a funny or a happy moment...I don't know.

I just think it's important that I share this to someone. Anyone. Who might be going through what I am going through.

So Qing and I consult our parents on what we should do. We called them via video chat.

Qing's parents are agreeing with us, that I should talk to a professional.

Qing's Mom: (concerned) Dayu ah, talk to someone. I can accompany you. Do you want me there? Just us. Leave Qing out.

Qing: (surprised) Why are you leaving me out?

Qing's Mom: Dayu might be stressed that is why he is experiencing this. You sure are one of the reason why he is stressed.