Secret Love Nest 2018

Closure pt3

The next morning, NaLi asked me for a meet up.

"We will go back to Beijing tonight, I wonder if you can spare sometime for me this morning or afternoon? One hour will do,"

I messaged her back to say that I can meet her after breakfast. Before the hair styling team on the production got busy fixing my hair.

We met up. In the same cafe where we drank hot cocoa last night.

NaLi ordered coffee while I prefered to drink tea.

NaLi: I just want to say that I am happy to meet you again, Dayu.

Me: I am happy to see you too. You could have just messaged that and not...

NaLi: (cutting my words) You are my first love.

I stared at her in surprised. NaLi smiled widely at me.

NaLi: You are my first love, Feng Jian Yu. And I think you are the guy that got away. When I left with my family, I was plagued with what ifs for years. Wondering what could have happened to us if I stayed. You are that person for me.

Me: NaLi ah...

NaLi: (looking down for a moment before meeting my eyes again) When I saw you last night, all those what ifs came back to me. And I felt a twinge of regret, Dayu. I think you could have made me happy. And I could have made you happy. Maybe we could be married by now. Starting our own family. All those maybes...

I don't know what to say to that.

NaLi: I am getting married. Next month...

Me: Really? Congratulations!

NaLi: (laughing delicately) Thank you. My fiance...he is a good man, Dayu. I love him and he loves me. We adore each other.

Me: That is great then.

NaLi: It is. Especially now that I saw you. I am seeing how happy you are. How fulfilled in your life. I see it now. That even though you are the guy that got away from me, you are living voraciously and that makes me so happy. I won't worry anymore.

Me: NaLi ah...

NaLi: (shaking her head) I know. This might sound crazy or something but I sometimes worry about you. About this nice guy I dated in sophomore college who I think will make a decent husband and partner for life. I worry about you but not anymore...you seem very happy.

Me: I am. And you should be happy too. Sorry, I...don't think about you that much...

NaLi: I know. I am glad that I never crossed your mind.

Me: Not never. I also sometimes remember about this pretty girl I dated in sophomore college. But...I reconcile myself to the thought that you are with your family and they love you. You are with your parents and they are taking care of you.

NaLi: Good thinking on your part. Thank you, Dayu ah. For those precious months of us dating. You are a happy memory for me.

Me: You too. You are a happy memory to me, NaLi. I smile when I think about you.

NaLi: (flushing) Yes. Me too. And now that I saw you again, it's still the same. You are still a happy memory for me. I hope you keep on being happy, Dayu ah.

Me: You too.

I held my hand out to NaLi and she gladly shook it. We smiled at each other.