Secret Love Nest 2018

Dreams Do Come True pt1

This incident happened some months ago, I just remembered to write it now, so...I want to write it here in my journals.

One night, I woke up to Qing screaming and panting for breath.

Me: (scrambling to sit up with him. One eye still close) What happened?

Qing turned his head to look at me. His eyes then lost some of that wild eyed look. He put his arms around me and hugged me tight.

Qing: (in a breathy tone) You are here. You are okay.

He sniffed so I had hugged him too.

Me: Did you had a nightmare? What happened in your dream?

Qing leaned out to shook his head at me.

Qing: Something that will not happen. It will never happen. Let's go back to sleep.

He gently pushed me down on the bed and lay beside me. He then gathered me in his arms to hold me. A little tight if I may say so myself.

He said we should go back to sleep but I think it took him a long time to close his eyes again. Whatever Qing dreamt about...it rattled him. He was quiet during breakfast so I didn't probed him about his dream.

Hey, I can be sensitive too. And considerate. I want to know but Qing was not ready to talk about it so I didn't bothered him too much about it.

Fast forward to one week later and I noticed that Qing is still bothered by that dream. He will go on and do his usual things. We will video chat and message each other because I am in Wuxi and he is in Beijing, he looks fine. But there are moments when he will be quiet all of a sudden and I think I lost him over some thoughts that bothers him.

Mainly that dream.

So the next opportunity for me to rest in Beijing with him, I started planning for our anniversary trip.

Remember our talk before the end of the year. Qing wants to postpone our anniversary trip, I said no way Jose, but it turns out I will be the reason why our trip will be delayed for some days.

Yeah...funny how that one works out.

Anyways, to make up for being the reason for the delay of our anniversary trip, I want to make it extra special for us.

Me: (notepad open, pen in hand) Where do you want to go this year? We lived in a ranch for a week last year on our anniversary. What should we do this year?

Last year, we roughed it out for our anniversary. Living in a ranch for a week. We rode horses, camped in the wilderness and stayed in a hunting lodge during our anniversary. Qing planned the whole thing. He let me pack for us, saying I have the eyes for details and decided what are the essential things we will need for our trip.

I should write it here, what happened in our anniversary last year. It was special. Of course, I wrote about the happenings in a notebook that is tucked away, special moments should be written of course, to be read and reread so I can relive those moments.

But I haven't transfer those notes here in my diary. I don't know. I think I want to hold on to those memories, they are very very very very truly special after all.

This year, I want it to be special too. So I am making a list of what we can do for our anniversary.

Me: Shall we go to the beach?

Qing: NO!

I was startled at his loud "no". My eyes widened while Qing gave me a panicked look.