Secret Love Nest 2018

Weird Feeling

Have you guys ever felt like...really alone?

(Oh no...will this be a melancholic entry again? We knew it! You are really missing Baba! LDR is hard)

*sigh*

I had that kind of feeling yesterday. Maybe because of the long nap I took. I don't know. So what happened was, I had a long tiring day but for some reason, I cannot sleep. I didn't try to call Qing because I know he is working and come on...I am the not the kind of person that disturbs someone's rest, so I held my phone but only to watch mundane videos about different street food from different countries.

I know...it's quite strange. But the strangest part was even though I am watching food after food after food, I didn't get the urge to stand up and eat.

So I watched videos until I think...4am before I just kick my feet, off all the lights on our room, close my eyes and sleep.

Just to wake up after two and half hours.

(Wow, just two and half hours of sleep? You must moved like a zombie...)

Nah, I did some laundry, folded clothes and wrapped more gifts. I even wrapped Qing's gifts to his family myself. I was quite active even though I am missing some winks.

But after eating breakfast at ten am, I found myself yawning so I went to wash and back to bed to fall asleep.

Have you guys experienced a long nap where you wake up like every five minutes then you will go back to sleep again, dream, wake up again, go back to sleep, continue dreaming...so on and so forth until you feel like you haven't rested at all?

The worst part, I woke up and it's already dark.

(What? You slept that long?)

Eight hours straight. I felt heavy afterwards. Disoriented even. Questioning myself why it's dark already and why do I feel like totally alone.

Well, of course I am alone in the condo but I don't know...it's like a scenario in a sci fi movie where the protagonist just went into a coma and when he woke up...mankind is over and he is the only one alive.

Or so he thought.

(So walking dead...)

I know. But that's what I felt. I felt sluggish so I sat on the living room couch, my head spinning a bit, my throat dry and I am really confuse. Like if someone ask me what day it is, I will have no fucking clue what to reply.

I closed my eyes again and tried to think. I decided the darkness is offending me so I clapped my hands to open almost all the lights in the living room and kitchen.

Big mistake. The too bright lights gave me a splitting headache. So I dimmed down the lights and took deep breaths to feel better.

It worked. I felt a little better. Enough that I could stand up and go to the kitchen to get something to drink.

After wetting my dry throat, I searched for my phone. It meant going back to the room to take it from the sidetable. I look at the time, it's already 6:10 pm. Yup, it was a solid eight hours of sleep.

I felt an ache on my body and I felt annoyed. How can I feel tired after sleeping for eight straight hours? And why does it feel so quiet?