Secret Love Nest 2018

Symbols pt2

Qing is not happy. And he has a good reason not to be.

Our couple rings are missing.

I lost them.

If you guys just knew the efforts and sentiments behind our couple rings, you will understsnd why Qing is upset that they are missing.

It took Qing months to have those rings. They were commissioned. Qing sought a jewelry maker, asked for designs, and when he couldn't find anything to sooth what he has in mind for our couple rings, Qing asked the jewel maker if they can design the rings together. Fortunately, the jewel maker said yes.

Qing and the jewel maker talked about things, including Qing and I's relationship to came out with a good design for our ring.

Qing then personally picked the color for our rings. How heavy they should be and made sure that he got our fingers' measurements right.

Months. Months of labor was attached on those rings. Months of efforts and waiting.

But more than that, those rings symbolizes Qing's love for me. Our couple rings has a deeper meaning for my lover.

Qing: Whenever I am wearing my ring, it reminds me that I am committed to you. And whenever I see you wearing your ring, it reminds me that you are mine. That I won your love and you accepted my love for you.

What I feel for our rings are about the same as Qing's sentiment on them.

So you guys have to understand, our couple rings are important to us. We may have more rings but those rings will always be special to us.

That is why we are extremely upset that they are missing.

Qing: Maybe you just misplaced them, Love.

Me: (feeling scared)  Do you think so?

Qing: Oh Love...

He hugged me again. Because I am visibly upset. I felt tears on my eyes. I am close to panicking.

I think I will never forgive myself if I lost those rings. And if God forbids, we won't find them, I think a part of me will die.

Those rings symbolizes our beginning. Our relationship.

So Qing pulled me back to our walk in closet and we started searching. But no matter how we dismantle our closet, the rings are not there.

We started eliminating other possible scenarios.

Qing: It's not robbery. If someone are after money, they should have taken the whole jewelry box. And even if they don't want the whole box, they should have taken your diamond earrings first.

What he said made sense. This is not robbery.

Me: (sounding upset) Fuck my diamond earrings! I want our couple rings!

Qing: (sighing in frustration) Dayu ah.

Me: (getting angry amidst the chaos in our closet) I lost them. I lost them...

Qing: (putting an arm around my should to hug me to his body) Stop it, Love. We haven't lost them yet. Maybe they are in our room.

So we went to our room to search there. And since we have less cabinets and drawers in our room and it's newly decorated, searching was easy.

Concluding that the rings are not in our room was easy.

Me: (sitting on the bed) I hate myself.