who am i to you ?

part 42 happy ??

I see him walking towards me. And i'm asking myself what the heck he likes about me?

My sickness doesn't give any chance to spend a single day with you, but why ??

You just want to spend time with me even though you already know that i loved somebody else. But now will i accept you ??

I still don't know.

I was shock when you tell me that you like me. I don't know what to do when i heard that.

But one thing that i know.

My love is going to another heart.

I'm tired to tell myself that is not real.. It is not real.. And i can keep me still.

And there you are, standing in front of me trying to comfort me, and do anything to make me happy, but i still can't see that.

I'm evil ... I know that.

"What's the matter honey?? Are you not feeling well ?? Should we go inside ??" i'm looking at him now. Smiling with the cutest smile that i ever seen.

"It's okay.. I like here.."he stand right behind me and hug me from my back.

"What are you doing ?? The maid will see us !" he just keep huging me and i know he wouldn't let go.

"Please just for 5 minute" he put his head in my back make me feel uncomfortable but i don't really want him to let go of me.

"Aishh... Okay..." i said that his respond only  giggle ...

"Why your body so warm emil ??"

"Maybe it's the weather ??" he let go his hug and make stand right in front of him so i can see his face. I can see worried ayes that he has.

He put his back hand to my face.

"I said we are going inside now" suga feel so worried right now.

"I'm okay..."

"Shhhhtt " he put his finger to my lips so i can shut my mouth and do what he tell me to do.

"I don't want to oppa... I still want to see this view haaachimmm" he just drag me inside of the house. Even though i told him that i'm okay.

"You had fever" he put a thick blanket to cover my body.

"I'm okay..."

"STOP TELLING ME THAT YOUR FINE BUT YOUR NOT!!" 

Suga stand up and put his both hand in his wrist. I'm suprised his yelling at me.

My face just turn red. I know i can't angry to another people. That's the only thing that sign me angry to someone.

He hold my soulder and look deep at my face.

"Emil... I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to yell at you... I just..."

I see his face just right the way to cry.. But his not going to do that. We all know how suga's act like.

"I know... You just trying to protect me  ...." at least what i said make him smile.

"Thank you for understand me honey"

He kiss my lips and leave me with an surprised face.

Why he do that ?? Is he not afraid catch my cold.??

"You'll get my cold" he just smile and make his head close to mine.

"I don't care". I just feel worried about hin right now..

He is just...

My preacious.

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