Secrets

Lonely

Luke's P.O.V-

*3 weeks later*

I wake up and look at the ceiling, all I felt was pain. I let a tear slip out as I remembered Maddie wasn't here.

"Luke?"

"I want to be alone" I say as my mum walks in anyway. I sigh and turn to face my wall. She sits beside me and turns me to face her.

"Luke you've been alone for 3 weeks, it time to leave your room"

"I don't want to"

"You haven't showered in ages. Get up" She says dragging me out of my bed. She pulls Maddie's letter out of my hands and I cry. She begins to read as it's the first time she has seen it, well the first time anyone but me had seen it.

"Mum, can I have it back?"

"This is so upsetting" She says while sitting on my bed. She wipes her eyes and faces to me.

"Mum, I need a hug" She wraps her arms around me and I cry. It had been 3 weeks and I still couldn't stop crying. I bet she was laughing and having fun without me.

I get up and shower for the first time since Maddie left. It felt weird as this time I was crying. The tears fell down my cheek and it felt good to cry without having to wipe them away.

After an hour or so, I get out and dry my hair. I finish and get changed into some skinny jeans and a shirt as my mum had invited Anna and Calum over. I hadn't seen them since the day Maddie left and Anna told me that Maddie had contacted her.

I see my door slowly open and Calum walks in, Anna behind him. She smiles weakly as she sees what a mess I am.

'Canna, my otp' I smile and they nod. I could tell they didn't want to talk about their relationship.

"How are you?" Calum says and I laugh. He looks confused along with Anna.

'Well my girlfriend and best friend just left me. How do you think I feel?' I say bitterly and smile sarcastically.

"Sorry man" He say patting my back.

"I'm sorry it's not your fault, I shouldn't have snapped at you"

"I get it, don't worry" He sighs.

"Do you have any news on Maddie Anna?"

"She changed her number so we can't contact her. She said it's the best way for you to forget her"

"That's it?" I say, the tears building up.

"She's safe. She was in a hotel in London when I spoke to her. She'll be fine Luke"

"All alone. She doesn't have me or anyone"

"I'm so sorry Luke, I'd fly over but I'm 17"

"Maybe I should" I say and my whole world brightens up.

"Luke, she wants you to forget about her. I think you shouldn't forget but move on"

"CALUM SHE IS MY EVERYTHING AND I AM NOT MOVING ON WITHOUT HER" I shout.

"Calm-"

"I AM IN LOVE WITH HER AND SHE IS THE ONLY PERSON I WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE WITH" I get up and run. I hear him yell my name but I leave my house.

"LUKE!" My mum shouts but I continue to run. I stop at the beach and fall to the ground. I cry as I realise where I was. I was on the beach where Maddie and I wrote the only reason. I remember the first time I heard her sweet, calm voice and I instantly fell in love with it. I wish I could hear ut again.

"Luke? Can I have a picture?" A girl asks. I look up and she smiled.

"I can't, I'm sorry"

"Why not? I'm not being pushy at all" She looked angry.

"I'm not up to it" I say wiping my eyes.

"But you're outside? You obviously know people are going to see you so get up and put on a smile for my photo"

"I'M NOT TAKING A PICTURE WITH YOU" I shout and she glares.

"Is Maddie in a mood with you? She doesn't deserve your kindness" I glare at her and she smirks.

"You" I say and she nods.

"Photo time?"

'MADDIE LEFT ME BECAUSE OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU. GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME, HOW COULD YOU?'

"What did I do?"

"That stupid hash tag. #MadukeBreakUp. You got your wish now leave me the fuck alone" say and get up.

"Want to come over mine?" She says sweetly and I almost throw up at how desperate she was.

"What is wrong with you? You're about 15, why would I go sleep with you?" I laugh angrily and walk off. She does a small shout as I see Michael. He runs over.

"Hey, you're out?" He asks.

"Obviously" I say rolling my eyes.

"Sorry, stupid question" He says and I see a tear fall from his eye.

"Why the fuck are you crying?" I say stopping.

"I miss her too"

"She wasn't your girlfriend"

"No but she was my best friend Luke. She meant a lot to me as well" He says and speeds up. I run after him and turn him around.

"MICHAEL!" I yell and he stops.

"What?"

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that it's not your fault. I keep doing that, pushing away the people I love"

"Aww Luke, come here" He says.

"I always do this to you and I'm sorry. I get that you're upset about Maddie leaving, you were her best friend" I say and give him a hug.

I walk back to his house for a change of scenery and we do something to take our minds off Maddie. It didn't really help but it was nice to do something with someone who missed her a lot, like me.

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