Hello again. I'm still feeling like I'm stuck in limbo. I feel exausted yet wide awake. I can't sleep without being uncomfortable and restless, I can't stay awake without feeling exausted, I'm hungery but when I eat I feal like I'm going to puke but if I don't I get some seriouse cravings. I'm just not happy, but I'm not unhappy either. Whatever there have been some bright spots where I do feel happy, most of the time the involve human interaction but I hardly have time for that any more. I'm just so swamped, all the people I want to talk to I can't because I'm so fucking swamped with work and have no motivation to get it done. I'm just stuck.
Any way on a side note I found out the name of the adorable girl who goes to my school. No, sadly I din't talk to her, she and a friend walked into Ms. Mettlers at break and she was on the phone. But ya, I heard Ms. Weller say her name on the way out. Gods I sound like such a god damn stalker. But I don't know something about her just makes me all wonky, like I haven't even talked to her yet I think I have a crush. Stupid feeble human emotions. Anyway I only have 4 months to gain the balls to talk to her before I graduate and probably never see her again. No fucking pressure whatsoever. I don't even know if it's worth it, I mean I know practicaly nothing about her other than her name is Sam and she's a sophmore. This is the part where I could use some advice. Like should I bother? How should I aproach her without seeming like a creeper? What do I say? Please I'll take most any advice I can get, I've never really been in a situation like this and decided to act on it. So help.
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