*Sigh* It's over, finally over. I just hope that I didn't fuck up and mix up the Spanish-American war with another one. Right now I feel tired, like the sleepy kind of tired. Fun fact about me, when I get sleepy I get really cuddly, like REEEEEEAAAAAAALLY cuddly. I just want to curl up into somebody ans burrow myself and fall asleep in somebody's arms. It's childish I know which is why I don't. This would also be why I don't really cuddle, I'm afraid that I will get in somebody's personal space or do something wrong or... or... I don't know, maybe I'm just afraid of physical contact. And at times like these when I'm sleepy and watching Syfy with people in complex relationships makes me think of Diana. Damn I wish was asexual, love is just going to end up ruining me. I wrote next to one of the sketches I'm working on "How long until you'r "friends" leave you" and it's true if I truly decided to be myself people I care about would leave me... or maybe not... y'know the pic that I changed to the cover photo for this? Well I drew it a few days ago and showed it to Helen saying that I didn't understand why I liked it so much and she told me it was because it was me. Well that's true it's me, but I drew Kage not Conner, maybe they could care about me... maybe I'm a fool... maybe I just don't know to show myself so I wear these stupid masks... maybe I'm just overthinking this. Anywho, since I got out of class early today I got to head over to YAC and talk to Katya about children's cartoons and such and it was beautiful! Well, I'm gonna go now, I'll try and update soon.
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RandomI cut my hair short cuz I wanted it to be like a guys. But everyone still told me I looked pretty. I bought a binder only for cosplay. I ended up wearing it every day. I am a boy. So why does everyone see a girl...
