Hey guys. Wow, so it's been a bit and some shit's gone down, both good and bad. Good: Diana's getting better with pronouns(despite lots of hiccups) an' we're hanging out more, I'm chilling with people more/being more social/feeling like I'm doing normal teen shit for once, I'm headed off to college in only a few months, extra. Bad: I'm quitting YAC after this month, I'm stressed about jobs and the commute when I graduate, and I've been getting really depressed lately whenever I'm not around people. So ya, kinda feel like shit but really good at the same time which is confusing. But I'm quitting YAC cuz, well, it just stopped being fun and I want to leave on good terms not cuz I got kicked out. See there cutting people who aren't strictly following the rules and I just can't deal, that and I have college coming up 'nd it's just not the same. I feel really depressed about leaving, but going is causing to much anxiety and stress. So I'm leaving, I'm gonna stay strong and move forward like I always do. I also got my freak (learning disabilities) testing done yesterday and I'm freaking out it's gonna say I don't need 'em caus I scored the highest Ms. M's ever seen in her 12 yrs of teaching (liiieeeesss I tell you) and I scored really high in math too. So now not only do I have to freak about loosing my accommodations but I have to worry bout being held to a much higher standard. I'm panicking about not being a straight A student again and I hate it, I'm not that person anymore, I'm more than happy scraping by if it means I get more adventures involving hanging out with friends on Friday nights and dealing with a friend's exploded tire on the side of the highway at 11pm (lol this actually happened, Waylond's tire literally exploded, I'll put a pic up next post), but now I'm stressing bout not going to a 4yr and getting strait A's again and I hate it I really fucking do. So a lot of other shit has happened an' I'm not in the mood to write so maybe next post. In the meantime I made a fake lip ring (parent's refuse to lemme have a real one :/ ), wudda you guys think? Yes? No? Maybe so... (lol) Or move it? Hot or Not? You tell me.
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RandomI cut my hair short cuz I wanted it to be like a guys. But everyone still told me I looked pretty. I bought a binder only for cosplay. I ended up wearing it every day. I am a boy. So why does everyone see a girl...
