Confusion, FtM journal

20 May 2015 FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!!!!

I

AM

MOVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YES!!!

Ok ok, so I've sorta already partially moved but it's been this wishy washy we might me moving/it might only be for a small bit so we can refi the house dealio, but we just got told were actually moving! Things aren't 100% certain right now and if you know me irl please please PLEASE don't say anything to anybody cause were in a weird situation and my mom doesn't want anybody to know just yet so I could be in some DEEP ASS SHIT if anybody spills the beans. So lemme explain, we actually own this house in pb that we've been renting out for the past couple of years so we could move to Carmel for the school district (which is stupid cuz it's like a 5 min drive), so we've been renting the place that were in currently now. So back in April (on my bday actually) the tenants moved out and my mom was gearing up to rent the place again till she found out they could refinance the house but that required our living there, so we've been slowly moving shit secretly to make it look like were living there and so we could live there part time since we still need the place were in for the adress so my sis can at least go to carmel for one more year (she has to if she wants credits for this class she's taking). So while all this has been happening I've been spending more time over there since I have my own room, and my mom's been hella stressed warning me I may have to move my shit back at any time, and my dad's been dealing with having to possibly move offices again cuz the renters for that might kick us out. Then last night we moved beds and tables so my sis is stuck sleeping on the couch and I'm on just a mattress that's lying on the floor (couldn't move the mattress last night since when we do I'll sleep over there and nobody was ready for that last night). So now each house is like weirdly half empty (not so much the pb house anymore) and we just got the word today that my dad has to leave the office he's been renting so ya. Which means we are officially moving cuz my dad's gonna have to use one of these houses as his office. So pretty much the plan is were gonna live out of the pb house, my dad's gonna set up office at the cottage were in now (if it's ok w/ the renters), and were gonna leave a room here open for my mom and sis to spend the night during the week since she technically has to be living here for most of the time (and it's easier than driving from pb every morning). So ya, confusing right? And it's still not 100% posotive. So again PLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't say anything!!!!!!!!!! My head is on the line here, I just really needed to vent.

Ok some other cool shit that's happened: I GOT MY NEW BINDERS! Ok so I seriously thought people were over exaggerating about GC2B, but holly fucking shit. Like seriously that shit is the bomb, it makes me almost 100% flat chest, not to mention I can breath... like REALLY breath. Better than a sports bra, like no joke it just feels like I'm wearing a shirt, and the fabric is comfortable unlike Underworks. My mom ordered 2, one half binder and another tank, and she said she would order me another one since it actually looks really good so I can use one for swimming. SWIMMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you know how much I miss swimming?! Fucking hell I love swiming but I haven't been able to do jack shit in so long and now I'm going to be able to go swimming agian!!! Like in an actual pool in public. A REAL FUCKING POOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have no idea how excited I am right now. I'll try and post some pics laters.

Also guess who got a scholarship last night! This guy! All cuz of Diversity club too, thank you so fucking much Ms. Loomis! I love yooooou!!!

Ok I'm gonna go so I can actually do my final and graduate... so y'know all this good shit can really happen.

Tootles!!! xP

oh P.S. Jo said she was gonna find a cute roboticsy chick that she approves of for me to date lol, I'd love that Jo :p