So I don't forget again

Entry 168: Rito village

When you love someone, what's the best thing you can do for them? Kass told me to make sure they knew I loved them, give them gifts and affection, sweet and honest words. Teba told me to serve them, do things for them that they can't or to make their lives easier. Words and touch are important, but he says service is the greatest show of love for you're helping them in a way they can't for themselves... It's just about what I was expecting from them. I asked Teba what I should do. The only thing I'm good at is fighting and Sidon already knows how to fight. He asked me who exactly my partner is. When I said a prince, he told me to become strong enough to fend off any danger from the outside so Sidon could focus on the duties only a prince could handle, the inside affairs of his people and leading them.

But I'm already doing that.

I asked Teba what it's like to be married, to live in one place, not traveling, being a partner and raising a child. He told me it's lots of hard work, compromise and listening. Marriage is not just about love but making the choice to stay and work at it, it's a partnership. I asked him if you had to know more than just fighting and some cooking, if it was okay to not know much else. He told me you learn a lot along the way, being good at communication would help though.

Seeing him, Kass, Amali and Saki has just got me thinking. Possible futures I could have after this... But I won't have any future if I fail again.

I asked Teba today how to become stronger. He just stared at me for a moment before raising a brow, asking what exactly I meant by that, even stronger than to fell four Divine Beasts. I've only been surviving since I've woken up. I have fought and trained but, I don't know if I've ever gotten stronger. He then asked why I want to get stronger. I want to protect my friends and family, and the only way to do that is to defeat the Calamity, and I... I'm scared I can't. I'm desperate to find the Master Sword, the reason I search every forest no matter how small, even searching through them for days on end because I don't think I'm strong enough to fight something on my own which had killed five champions and a princess with the sacred power that could seal it, even with the Master Sword there they fell, but it surely could help, right? It's supposed to be able to seal the darkness so maybe I could do it even without Zelda's power. But even with it, I need to be stronger than even the hero who could wield it. I need to go beyond a hero. He nodded, taking in what I was saying. I then told him about how in all my travels the Rito, he and Kass specifically are so incredibly skilled, the most skilled by far, even if I can't learn how to fly he could still teach me much. Teba said it was funny how we thought rather similarly. He actually wanted to ask me to teach Tulin some fighting techniques. Teba just wants his family to be safe and happy and he thought someone like me could be a good teacher. I am certainly strong in ways Teba doesn't think he ever could be or at least isn't now, and knowing his son was strong in ways even he himself struggles with... He rather liked the thought. His son had also been begging him to learn more archery and fighting so it would be a win-win situation.

Before I can try figuring out my past or dream of the future. I need to fix the present. And in order to do that, I need to be stronger than a world ending disaster. Stronger than six heroes. Stronger than the reincarnation of a god.

Teba and I spent all day training, only taking a break now so we can get some sleep, but right after it's back to training.

But how do I know if I've progressed at all? I need to find some way to figure that out. If only I could somehow fight my younger self with the Maser Sword, if I could beat him... maybe I'd stand a chance.

I want to fight for them, but...

I'm scared to die, but I want to fight that thing, but I'm just so scared. But I don't feel scared when training with Teba.

I think I'll let myself indulge in this for a little while.