So I don't forget again

Entry 50: Zora's Domain

*I do not know completely what had happened a hundred years ago, and I don't think I ever will, but what I can say though is that whoever you were a hundred years ago does not matter. At this time, you are a person with feelings and complexities that no one can or will ever understand. You carry a very heavy burden, yet you still stand. I can see why you would long to know who you were in the past, but no matter what you learn or do not, it need not define who you are now. Now, at this time, I see you as a kind person with a hero's heart. You are the greatest of Hylians. But most of all you are my second most treasured friend of all time! The only one above you is Bossa Nova! Though the past is important, please, my dear friend, don't lose yourself in it. Right now, you are not fighting because you have too, if you were you wouldn't have passion. You fight because you want too, and I hope you can see that, if you can't than re-read Entry 48! In fact, even if you can re-read it anyway! If what you said is true, then you wouldn't have gone out of your way to help Finley or to find a missing wife or cook and play hide-and-seek with children. Yes, you are certainly a knight, but you love to help others so please, realize that you are a person, even in the past you were! You opened up to the Princess about your past. You may have been raised with the purpose of you becoming a knight, but you are YOU and you are an amazing person the likes of which I have never met before. I just hope that you can see your own greatness soon.

We continued our search but found nothing but a dead end. We decided to turn around and take one of the branching paths we didn't before. As we drew closer to the Domain it began to turn cloudy then it stared to rain. We joked a little about Vah Ruta being on the rampage again creating another storm, though that was clearly not the case. We did decide though that it would be safer to traverse on foot while it was raining since the rivers were still a mess from the storm and the rain would only make the rivers even faster than they already are.

By the time we got to a forest it started raining extremely hard, yet parts of the sky were clear so we knew it wouldn't last long. It's still dangerous to travel in heavy rain, even on land so we decided to look around the forest. It started to rain even harder and the sky was dark. I was running but stopped when my grip had slipped due to the slick rain and she fell. Still on the ground she asked how it came to this as I kneeled before her. How Calamity Gannon turned everything against us, killing the Champions and everyone in the castle including the King. She looked at me for a moment, even in the pouring rain I could see tears cascade down her cheeks. She said it was her fault because she couldn't summon her special power. She said everything she did was for nothing and that she was a failure. She said she left them all to die, her father, her Kingdom, her friends. She collapsed and wept into my arms.

It was raining lightly, parts of the sky were clear. I could see a rainbow off in the distance. I felt my right arm being gently held. Sidon said it was good to have me back and asked me how the past was. I leaned my head on him and told him what had happened. Though I can't remember much about her, it hurt me to no end to see her like that. I guess it's because it's my duty to protect her, and in that time, there was absolutely nothing I could do.

We traveled via river again. I told Sidon that he needed to come traveling with me since he seemed to be a good luck charm for finding the locations which help recall some memories. He said that as much as he wants too, he probably wouldn't be allowed to be gone for that long. He then realized that we left on this adventure without any notice so when we get back, he'd probably be in trouble with Muzu. His father on the other hand would most likely be okay with this.

We kept searching in the river till Bossa Nova grew hungry so we traveled on land so he could graze for a bit. We were in an area I recognized, it wasn't too far from the Dueling Peaks. Sidon said that we should be reaching Lake Hylia soon, the largest lake in Hyrule. He said a large stone bridge towers above it. In one of the pictures you can see a long, tall stone bridge, over what appears to be large lake. At the front of the picture is a large tree with a small stone shrine with two small statues in it. I showed Sidon the picture and asked Sidon if the lake in the picture is Hylia. Sidon exclaimed that he's seen the area in the picture before and swiftly led me to the location.

It was storming. I was practicing my sword swings while she took shelter under the large tree. She spoke of how I apparently took the same path as my Father and became a knight. She then asked if one day I realized that I was not meant to be a fighter yet people only ever said that because I was born into a family of the royal guard, no matter what I thought I had to become a knight. She asked if that was the only thing I was ever told, she wondered if I would have chosen a different path. I stopped and stared at her for a moment. I knew that she was actually talking about herself and her role of being in the royal family, but. . . I said it was almost true.

I knew it. I had a suspicion after reading Mipha's diary, but I pushed it to the back of my mind I didn't want to think about it. I was never a person, only a tool. I was raised to be used by the royal family, I was never meant to be anything else, not even myself. That's why all my memories were focused on others. I was never a person. I was never meant to be a person. That's why I never questioned anything the ghost of the King said, why I always do what I'm told. I'm a tool and nothing more. It's why it's so hard to connect. I'm not supposed to connect. I knew there was something wrong, I just couldn't place it, but it was right in front of me this whole time, I'm wrong.

Sidon asked if I was alright and the grip on my arm grew a little tighter. I pulled away and said it was nothing. He swiftly took my arm again and said it wasn't nothing. He then asked me what I had remembered. So, I told him exactly what I had realized. He patiently stood there and listened. Once all was said and done, he stayed silent for a moment, to let me say anything else I suppose, but he soon spoke. "So, what of that? What does it matter?" He had me take out my journal, and we read a few passages, and then he had asked if he could "engrave some choice words into your memory." It's the first thing written in this entry.

How does he always know just what to say to pluck my heart strings?

I have no idea how I'll survive without him after I leave for Death Mountain.

With renewed strength in my heart I suggested that we go investigate Lake Hylia to which Sidon was pleased to hear. We swiftly made our way back into the water and we were on our way. With Bossa Nova of course! We spotted a small island on the lake, so we headed there. And there she was! Once we told her husband was waiting, she immediately left for home.

There was also a Shrine on the island, so I completed it before we went back as well. Sidon asked me about the Shrines. I explained that they were made to test me, and I occasionally get some good weapons or armor from it. There were many by the Entrance to the canyon that leads to Zora's Domain so Sidon took me to every one we could find. We even went to the tower and got the map of the region. It was also a chance for me to teach Sidon a bit about climbing!

When we got back Muzu made sure to give Sidon a lecture of a lifetime.