The Unusual Suspects Book 2

Justin

I couldn't believe I had really brought myself to this. Naw, let me rephrase, I couldn't believe we had come to this. As shocking of a conversation as it turned out to be, Suki did accompany me to going to this group session for grieving parents. We had listened to so many stories about people losing their children to drugs, gun violence, miscarriages, stillbirths...it was just a lot. I didn't bank on the fact that it would be so many people that actually feel the same way that I do or anything. But here I was, feeling it all. I had almost broke down several times listening to their stories, but at least it was a way to have a hope. If they all did, I knew I could as well. But I think the real elephant in the room was the fact that Dom and Kev were here too. I tried my hardest not even to look over there at her, but I couldn't help it. I wish things would've went differently. I mean I really did like Suki, but we don't have that bond yet. I ended up keeping my head down most of the time, holding it together. Then...the unthinkable happened, Dom went up to speak.         
"Everyone tells you how you can get through it all. But they never tell you how it's not day by day that you take it. It's more like hour by hour, minute by minute. It's the smallest things that trigger you. A cute toddler. The mention of milk. A crying baby. Anything that rattles. Your mind...it just doesn't stop. Everything takes you back to that moment of the loss. And you're in your mind thinking of tons of different scenarios of how it could've gone. The sad reality is that nothing you're thinking of will bring them back. Nothing. So...you just deal. And sometimes you have a support system, sometimes you don't. Sometimes you think they understand and then you realize they can't fathom the half. We can place the blame on ourselves..." she paused for a moment. "...the other parent..." she paused again. "...sometimes we even blame God. But no matter what conclusion we come to, the fact still remains the same. Instead of declining because of our babies, we have to live for them. That's what we're reduced to in all actuality." Dom said as she wiped her own tears and Suki leaned over on me and wrapped her arm around me. She then grabbed ahold of my hand and squeezed it.        "You okay?" she asked me softly. I just nodded. "It's okay to not be okay." she said as she looked in my eyes. "You wanna go?" she asked me and I nodded. We just got up and walked out. I really didn't know what to say. We went and got into her Mustang and pulled off. We were quiet for most of the ride. "You with me for the night?" she asked me.
"Sure." I said as we pulled up to her house and went inside.                              
"Make yourself at home." she said as I sat down on the couch and tried to pull my shit together. I think I took in a lot in that hour and a half that we were there. Before I knew it, she had returned with a tray that had 2 mugs on it and took a seat. "Sip this..." she said as she passed me one. "It's just a hot toddy. I feel like this may call for it." she said as I took a sip from the mug. "Good, ain't it?"         
"Hell yeah." I said as we both laughed.    
"Chai Tea with some Crown Vanilla." she said to me and I nodded at that. "Something about Chai is already soothing and then the crown just tops it off for real." she said to me.                          "Right, you're good." I told her.                   
"What you mean?" she asked me.              
"You in general. You're a good listener. You have a good heart. You're a good mother. A good student. You make a hell of a hot toddy..." we both laughed. "You're good. I can appreciate that." I finished. She stared in my eyes for a few. "Justin, let me ask you. I mean how did you feel in there?" she said softly.             
"Small. For the first time in my life, I felt so small. Like they told their stories and I felt like I was sinking. Then when Dom started...I could feel every single word."
"Yeah...but at least she did say she doesn't blame you." she said.                    
"Maybe she should partially though." I said and she stared at me again. She took the mug from my hand and placed it on the table and she came over and sat in my lap and hugged me. I had of course hugged so many people throughout life, but this one felt the most sincere and calming. Like she was trying to be comforting and I felt all of that. We shared that hug for some time before we began to pull apart and immediately she began to kiss me. Not like she normally did though, this right here was sensual. I went to pull away.  
"It's okay." she said before she pulled her shirt off and then pulled mine off too. I wasn't anticipating any of this, but I was with it.  She positioned her body over me as she straddled my lap and started to kiss on my neck and down my chest. Man that shit felt good. She went ahead and pulled my dick out from my shorts and got down on the floor in front of me. She looked me dead in my eyes before she wrapped them lips around the head. Man as hot as her mouth was this shit felt beyond amazing. I didn't have to direct her, she just did it right. She kept her tongue circling the head while she sucked and I ain't gone lie this shit kinda had my head fucked up. She withdrew her mouth and then she straddled me again and lifted up to guide me inside of her. She started riding slow and when she bit down on my ear, that did it. I had put my arms around her and lifted her up and we had to switch positions. I wasn't about to let her get that control. I'm about to run this.