Kaylor Family One-Shots

Love is Tragedy (Part One)

This one-shot will be broken into FOUR parts.

Taylor's P.O.V

Cries from the baby monitor beside me wake me from one of the better night's sleep I've had since Bianca was born almost four months ago. Walking into Bianca's nursery I notice how quiet the house is, except for Bianca's hungry cries. "Shush Bianca, mommy's here." I coo towards my daughter. Scooping her up she immediately stops crying and just stares at me, all evidence of the tiredness she had earlier in the night is gone as I sit in the rocking chair in her room and just rock her gently. Time passes but all Bianca does is reach out her grabby fingers and look at me. All the baby books say that at four months old she can distinguish between bright a colour, which is interesting, but most of the time she reaches for me and either sucks on her fingers or mine. It's strange watching her grow because four months ago she wasn't even here she was still growing inside me and since she was born she has just grown and grown. It's such an amazing thing to watch the only thing that ruins it is the fact that Karlie isn't here and hasn't been here since I was four months pregnant. I sigh deeply and stand to walk and change Bianca's nappy because sometimes that's all she wants is a clean one, so dramatic already. As I change her she watches the mobile above the table and when I'm done changing her I tickle her belly and leave her onesie off so I can feed her. Unbuttoning my pyjama top I settle back into the rocking chair and let Bianca latch on and feed, she does it with ease but the first few goes were hell this is what I miss about not having another person to help me, but then I look at Bianca and I can't believe that Karlie would cheat on me and that's when I always decide that Bianca doesn't need Karlie and that I will always be there.

Playing with Bianca's toes I notice that the date on the calendar is August 10 2021 which means in seven days Bianca will be four months old and it's gone so fast. Recently I've been getting asked by people in the business and my friends if I will ever tour again but to be honest I have no idea. Right now my job is my adorable little girl and even though I gave up touring when I married Karlie on 28 January 2018, I still get offers all the time. Management at the moment are trying to do a revival tour of all my top hits but I keep putting it off, I know I will have to do it but I have no idea whether I should take Bianca with me, no one will be able to look after her, I don't want to hire a nanny and so the only other alternative is to ask Karlie to take her for a month. That doesn't really impress me because I don't trust someone who cheats on their partners but it seems like I have no choice in the matter this time but I decide as I'm breast feeding Bianca that I will wait until they force me to go. Less than ten minutes later Bianca has been burped and dressed back into her onesie that has cats all over it and then put back into bed. As I leave the room I catch Meredith slinking in and quickly grab her and bring her back to bed with me. She loves Bianca and if she could she would sleep in the cot too but I can't afford for anything to happen to Bianca I just love her too much, so instead I put Meredith on my bed with Olivia and they are both asleep within minutes too. I change pyjama tops because my breasts leak milk sometimes and then I climb back into bed. Glancing at the side that used to be taken up with Karlie's long form I sigh and settle down, glancing at the clock I see it's now 12.56am which means if I'm lucky Bianca should stay down until at least 5.00am. She sleeps pretty well, almost like she knows I need sleep to so she stays quiet if she is awake or sleeps through.

Two days later I get called into see Scott Borchetta, my label president. I arrive without Bianca, who is being watched by Aunt Selena and Aunt Gigi while I am here. They are at my house so everything is already there and when I left Selena was changing Bianca while Gigi stayed back, I had to laugh Gigi doesn't have much experience with babies or children which is funny because Joe wants kids soon and he's the same age as me, thirty almost thirty one. Knocking on the door he tells me to enter. "Hey Taylor," he says coming to hug me. I pull back and he looks at me. I motion to my chest. "Sore today." He laughs and says it's fine and we get down to business. An hour later I'm walking back to my car where I call my mom. "Taylor, honey are you okay? Is Bianca okay?" I reassure her that we are both fine and then I tell her about the tour. "Oh Taylor, you knew it could happen. What are you going to do with Bianca?" I heave out a sigh and then I say. "I guess I'll have to talk to Karlie." My mom gasps and doesn't speak. She knows how much of a big deal this is for me to even think about leaving Bianca with her but I have no choice. "Well let me know how it goes. If all else fails we can take her." I smile and nod. My mom loves being a grandmother and Tracey does to, Bianca and I try to Skype her every few days just to see how she's doing. She never mentions Karlie and neither do I, I assume she knows but considering that she reached out to me before Bianca was born I gather she is aware that Karlie and I live on separate coasts. "I'll let you know." We hang up as I move through my contacts until my thumb passes over the contact, 'Karlie'. I take deep breath and press call, I know it will be late at night there but Karlie likes to stay up late so it doesn't surprise me when she answers. "Taylor? Everything okay?" I nod but remember she can't see me. "Everything is fine, can you talk or are you at work?" "No I'm just at home. What's up?" I breathe in and out and then say.
"Can you look after Bianca for a month, I have to go on tour and I don't want to take Bianca with her being so little." I know Karlie will understand because I send her pictures of Bianca every day sometimes twice if I can she never thanks me for them, but I know she is proud of Bianca because Tracey always tells me when she gets a new picture of Bianca too. We both know it's from Karlie but Karlie doesn't know that we still talk. "Yeah, of course I can take her. When do you want me to come and get her?"
"Oh no, I'll bring her to you. I have to check on the New York apartment, I'm selling it next month so I can bring her to you. Where are you living now?" I question pulling out a pen and getting ready to write it down but there is a pregnant pause. "I uhm, I live with Toni, it's uhm, do you remember where it is." I nod and remember she can't see me.
"Of course I do, I'll drop her off. We are still here in L.A at the moment." Karlie says it's fine and we hang up. I put the pen away and try really hard not to cry, because then Selena and Gigi will know and I hate the pity looks I receive when it upsets me. So instead I call Tree on the Bluetooth in my car and make plans to fly out tonight she agrees and says nothing when I say Karlie is taking Bianca, next I call mom and she tells me that it will all work out and I try to believe her but Bianca is my baby.