Kaylor Family One-Shots

Better Man

Taylor's P.O.V

"Okay, I get it I need to change the lyrics but it's not even about him. Why can't the lyrics stay the same as they are now?" I question looking down the table at management. I see Scott out of the corner of my eye sighing. He was the first one to look at the song once I'd finished it and it was only because I happened to be in Nashville when I finished the song. "Taylor why can't you see that the lyrics of 'I know I'm probably better off on my own, than loving a woman who didn't know what she had when she had it...' I don't think that it's the right thing to have, I mean you understand right?" Simon one of the heads of management questions, which makes me look at them in shock. I turn to my mom who is sitting next to me and Tree who is opposite me, my silent prayer as to what to do is obvious but neither of them answer. "So let me get this straight, I have the outside view to fans and other artists that I am wholesome and pure when it comes to my music but you're telling me that I can't keep the right words in my song. That I have to change things and I have to lie." I question looking at the rest of my team, they all look at me and then they look uncomfortable. "Taylor we understand that this is technically a lie but to be honest. You're not touring for the next year at least due to your situation, the last thing that we need is for people to then start to talk about you and the possibility that you are actually into women after all this time. We need to tread carefully and it starts now with this song. We can't be too careful now Taylor. After your Super Bowl appearance you're planning to stay away from the limelight so we need to limit the damage from this song." I roll my eyes again and look away, "Okay so for now I have to change to male proverbs nothing feminine. Is that true?" I watch as management all smile at me. Thinking that I'm okay with it when I'm far from okay with it but I have no choice.

Three hours later I'm back at my mom's house, having chosen to stay at her house during my time off rather than anywhere else. "Am I making a mistake mom?" I question looking through old pictures on my phone. Pictures that I haven't looked at in so long, "well maybe you are I mean will she know it's for her? Will it change the way she thinks about you together?" I shrug my shoulders at her, "no it won't." I state firmly believing that nothing will change the way that she feels about me. "Well in that case, I'd just do it. You know that Little Big Town want the song so I think that you should let them do it. They always do a good job and I think it would be perfect." Mom states looking at me as we look at the list of possible country bands that could perform the song and have it as their own while I stay the writer of the song under my own name not under an alias like it did for This Is What You Came For and that's because I learnt my lesson and it came back and bit me on the butt from when Calvin absolutely blew up on Twitter about it. I guess this time I'm learning my lesson before it kicks me in the butt.

The release of the song was epic and the CMA performance by Little Big Town was definitely one of the highlights of the entire award show. I've been a fan of the show since I began to write and it was an absolute joy to be able to join in and present an award while catching up with everything that everyone has been doing. All of my favourite country artists and friends who were there loved the fact that I came back and it was an absolute joy to be able to speak freely knowing that the paparazzi were not interested in things that we were saying and doing that night and it was just a relief. The months since were exciting, I got to perform my only show of 2017 and I performed Better Man, I was tempted to exchange the words for the original words but a last minute reminder from Tree left me knowing that I had no choice but to comply so I did.

The rest of the year is going to be really busy and that's because on the 3rd of March I will be visiting my local doctor and she will ask me all types of questions about my health, making sure that I've gained a healthy amount of weight which was a stipulation for me to even consider this procedure but it's going to be worth it, and on the 3rd of March when I arrive and am told that it will indeed be happening today I'm ecstatic because for the first time since I first penned Better Woman later to be re-named Better Man I wasn't thinking about how my decision would affect anyone else I was thinking about myself and that is the best decision that I have ever made. The only thing that could have topped it would have been if my 'Better Woman' decided to show up, but she's not here. She's travelling the world in 24 hour blocks. She's a busy woman and I guess that even though I know her like the back of my hand, her green eyes and how they shine when she looked at me with total love I guess 'we might still be in love if you were a better woman...Better woman' Her name is Karlie, Karlie Elizabeth Kloss and the hope has always been that she will think about the mistake she made but deep down I know she's not coming back. So instead I'll continue the journey on my own. One good thing that has come out of all of my relationships is that I know how to be alone. Except this time, after the doctor's appointment and hopefully in three weeks when it's confirmed I will no longer be alone and by Christmas 2017 small cries will fill the house that I will live in and my life will be complete. I'm hoping for a healthy daughter or son, a small baby that I can cuddle with, kiss lots and love like nothing else. They will become my life and then I won't have to worry about finding the elusive 'Better Woman' because my life will be complete.