Never Again: Chapter 41
Iris's POV
I woke up alone around 3am, I decided that I already hated sleeping inside. I jumped up and went downstairs. I pulled down the candy jar that was above the fridge and I grabbed a packet of m&ms, butterfingers, and milky ways. Then I Went outside, I gazed at the stars, hoping that they would take my mind off of Liam, and the pack. But it didn't because Liam was somewhere above the stars and every time I looked at them they reminded me of him.
I didn't want Rose to see me cry earlier but I couldn't help it, it was getting harder and harder for me to hide the pain. I was slowly going insane, I just didn't need them to see me like that. I laid back in the grass. I was wearing a sweatshirt and shorts, so I was pretty comfy, but I couldn't fall asleep. Instead I just watched the stars.
I laid awake all night, and I could hear the busy shuffling in the house. But I didn't bother getting up, I didn't want too.
"Hey Iris when did you get up," Aden asked walking outside eating a bowl of cereal. The rest of the pack was up and eating stuff too, they were all sitting on the porch.
"Um 3," I shrugged.
"What?" Rose asked.
"I couldn't sleep, so I just and watched the stars," I said calmly.
"You could have woken one of us up, we would have talked to you," Rose said.
"Rose you and Aden needed rest, and besides if anyone else wanted to talk to me then they would have earlier when they were up," I scoffed. Rose sighed, and I gazed at the trees, masking my emotions from them.
"They were just afraid of you," Niall said quietly.
"Niall I really don't want to rip your throat out, so can you like, not talk to me," I said bitterly.
"Why do you hate me so much!" Niall yelled. Making my wolf stir.
"I don't have a problem with you. My wolf does and that's probably because your a jackass and have crazy mood swings and you make my wolf angry every time you open you mouth because you're so damn stupid and it's like your begging for her to kill you," I said calmly laying back down.
I could feel Niall growling angrier and my wolf loved it.
"Why are you being a bitch!?" Niall bellowed, I think he was going to cry.
"Because I am one, I am part dog and I'm female so I do believe that makes me a bitch, like I said before you're stupid," I said staring at the trees. He was beyond angry with me now.
"It's a good thing you killed Liam, because now he doesn't have to deal with you being an arse to everyone! It doesn't surprise me that no one likes you! We only pity you because your a psychotic murderer! I'm positive Liam didn't even want to be around you when you went crazy! I bet he is really glad that he doesn't have to be around you anymore! Because no one actually does!!! NO ONE FUCKING LIKES YOU! WE ONLY PITY YOUR SORRY ASS!!!" Niall bellowed.
That did it, he broke me. I could feel my eyes fill up with tears, I had my back faced to them though so they couldn't see the color of my eyes. My wolf was howling with pain, she was wanted out, she wanted to relieve her pain, she wanted to leave.
I knew Harry could feel my emotions because they were strong. I was actually surprise none of them were actually talking. I glared at the trees, thinking about Niall's words. The more I replayed them the angrier I got. I was covering the pain with anger, and it felt better so I let my wolf get angry and then when I knew you couldn't tell that I cried I turned slowly to face them.
"Well that's nice," I said calmly, I was trying to stay mad, so that I wouldn't cry, but it wasn't working. I was trying my hardest to mask my emotions, but it was hard considering that my emotions were like a water breaking through a dam. I knew the others didn't know what to say, they were in shock, everyone was at a loss of words. Niall even looked a little bit guilty at what he said.
"Iris I ...." Niall began, but I cut him off.
"Don't," I said holding my hand up. "I know you guys pity me and I know you guys don't like me, that's nothing new, but I know for a fact that Liam isn't better off dead, and I swear to God that if you ever say that again I will rip your throat out, not my wolf, me! .... Maybe your right Niall, Liam probably was scared of me, he probably wouldn't like me either, BUT HE WILL NEVER BE BETTER OFF DEAD!" I snarled. Then I got up and stalked over to him. He tensed and so did the others. Rose was dazed, she wasn't fully aware of what was happening. She was just in shock.
I slammed Niall against the side of the house and I heard the pack growl, except for Rose and Aden.
"Oh shut up," I snapped at them. Then I turned back to Niall. "I promise you, Horan, I will not hesitate to kill you, my wolf doesn't like you, or trusts you, and she really wants to rip your throat out, but I don't let her because I don't want to add you to the list of people I kill. BUT DON'T YOU EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER! SAY ANYTHING ABOUT LIAM, or I may just let my wolf end you because your a moody bastard and she would love to watch you die," I growled viciously. Then I turned my back to him and turned into my wolf, I looked back at him, and he looked terrified. I looked around at the back, and for a spilt second my eyes turned blue, they were stuck a deep blue, almost black, but you could still tell that they were blue. I could see this in the reflection of their eyes, until I masked it and my normal coloured eyes appeared and I dashed off the porch. I needed my space.
A couple hours later, Rose appeared, in her wolf form. "Iris!" She wagged her tail and pounded up to me. I gave her a wolfy grin and barked happily. She was basically my sister, and I loved her dearly.
"Hey!" I greeted back, I was laying in a field in my wolf form and soaking up the sun.
"You do realise that we love you Iris right?" Rose said sternly.
"Yeah... Sorry for yelling at Niall, I can't help but hate him, my wolf does and it is so hard to control her" I said sadly.
"He is sorry, Iris, I already yelled at him too, and he cried after you left, and Zayn cried because he thinks that you hate him because he didn't stand up for you. And Aden was worried and I was worried. We do love you Iris, and it isn't always easy for us to not fight back when you yell at us. Your wolf sparks something in all of our wolves. My wolf loves your wolf, Aden's wolf loves your wolf , and Niall's wolf is scared of your wolf. But we all love you! " Rose said as she laid down next to me.
"Thanks Rose for coming and getting me," I said as my wolf curled up to her wolf.
"Anytime," she said. I surprisingly stopped my self from losing it, but one day I wouldn't be able to stop my crazy breakdown, and that scared me. I was on the path for disaster and I was afraid that the only people that cared about me would get in the way. And I just didn't want to hurt them.
Suddenly the hair shifted and my wolf started to growl. Rose jumped to her feet beside me, her eyes were bright red and I knew mine were too. But this time my eyes weren't red from self hate or guilt. They were blood red, because my wolf and I were both in control, it was hard to say why we were on alert but my wolf was stirring and we wanted to protect our only friend, our sister.
Then the wolves appeared, they weren't from our pack they were from the daemons pack. They weren't like us, except for two. The alpha, and his mate were complete wolves, but the rest were like Zayn, Harry, and Louis. None were like me and Aden though. The two alphas were dark grey, showing that they had a dark past, they looked a little shocked when they saw how bright Rose's coat was, an how black mine was. But what caught their eyes were how red our eyes were. I only knew mine were red because they reflected off of rose's own eyes.
Rose and I growled because we were out numbered.
"What the actual fuck," Rose screamed in my head.
"What do we do," I asked.
"I don't know," she said honestly, and I didn't blame her, we were outnumbered And alone, our best option would be to run, but if we needed to fight I would love to rip their throats out. But I waited for my alpha's call.
Was it flight or fight?
