Never Again: Chapter 93
Rose's POV
I tried not to focus on the dead bodies that clouded my thoughts. They were everywhere. Even when I closed my eyes I could see them limp in the light of the moon, cold and dead. It was haunting. My life was a horror film.
Niall had told me to go inside, and to take Iris. That's what I did. I had to help her take Zayn upstairs since he was weak and couldn't walk without groaning in pain. Zayn was now asleep in his bed, Iris had showered and was now curled up to his side.
I was alone in my room. I had showered also, but the scent of blood still lingered on my skin. No matter how hard I scrubbed the smell never left. I gave up on scrubbing my body when my skin was red and irritated. I wouldn't be able to fall asleep.
It was 3:46 in the morning. The fight had lasted approximately 1 hour. In one hour over 30 people died.
I couldn't get those damn images out of my head. The way their eyes would stay open and watch my every step was enough to make me afraid for all eternity.
It was our fault all those people died. It really was. It wasn't fair to the hunters to lay down their lives, even if 5 of them had lived. It wasn't fair.
I began to cry when I realized how I wouldn't be the same. How I wasn't the same person I was when I met Niall. I didn't really have a choice in the matter. Niall would still have made me his mate, and the Daemons would still have attacked us. I cried harder for the person I was.
She was naive, shy and awkward.
I laughed when I remembered how awkward I really was. But it was a sad kind of laugh that people do when they're in a desperate attempt to make themselves smile. So it wasn't really a laugh at all.
I cried for a long time it seemed. I cried until my eyes were dry, and my nose was raw from using all of the toilet paper from the bathroom since I ran out of tissues.
Niall was still outside burning bodies at 5:03 a.m. I don't know what I expected, I knew the bodies wouldn't just disappear. I just wish he was here with me.
I stopped crying when I took some sleeping pills from my cabinet in the bathroom. I took 3 to make sure I would fall asleep, swallowing them even though they had a bad taste.
I haven't seen Christian since before the fight, I hope he's ok. If something happened to... No nothing will happen to him, I reassured myself. My eyelids felt heavier as I thought of awful things.
The smell of burning flesh and bones became too much for me to handle. I ran from my bed and threw up in the toilet. I don't know what I threw up since my stomach was empty.
'Sleep,' my wolf begged. I agreed, my muscles ached all the way to my soft bed. I flopped onto the bed and my head landed on my big soft pillow. I was exhausted, everything hurt. My brain, my muscles, my heart; everything.
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Soft breathing and an arm around my waist brought be from my sleep. I looked at the nightstand to check the time, it was only 6:51. I had slept for a little over an hour but it felt much longer than that. It felt like I slept for a century.
Niall's arm was wrapped around my waist, his legs intertwined with mine. It was hot, wrapped up in his arms under the blanket. I ignored the heat and snuggled further into Niall. He was safe. As if almost instinctively, Niall's gripped tightened even more. I kissed the rose on his shoulder, doing that made me feel better.
But everything wasn't ok, it never would be.
What was left for me now? What was left for the pack? For Niall?
Even now that the Daemons were gone, we still wouldn't be safe. That was so crazy to believe that they truly were gone. I doubt that a day will go by without me thinking of them or the hell the put me through. Or the hell they put Niall through, or Iris. They took away Niall's brother and they took away Aden.
Jace really did take away my sense of security.
But I'll be dammed if I live in fear because of him. He's not going to ruin my life, well anymore than he already has.
(A/N: sorry for the late update! I've been swamped with school and volleyball games/practices. Did you guys like the fight scene last chapter? Hahaha thank you for reading, sorry for not updating! next update will be either tonight or tomorrow morning!xx)
