My Little Black Swan- A Chris Motionless Fan-fiction

His past and her thoughts

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Cerulli was angered at the sight of Laura with all her ornaments and a hammer smashing them on a table,
She broke all of her personal belongings just to find what she was looking for,
Which was of course, her supply of drugs,
She took a pill, and sat back on her chair,
"Laura what the actual fuck! Spit that out!"
"There is no point, I'm gonna overdose on the shit they give me anyways"
"But I thought you wanted to get better and out of this place!" He raised his voice,
"There is no point!"
"You have a daughter Laura what do you mean there is no point!"
"Don't you get it?! Do you know what I had to do! The sacrifices I had to make for him?! Huh?! Do you?!" She screamed standing up,
"I know he did those things but you-
"It's not just that" she sighed.
Chris frowned thinking what else that sick fuck could have done to her,
He had already been charged with rape, abuse, sexual assault. Drug and alcohol abuse.
Could he have been more fucked up?
That was what was on Chris's mind.
  But of course I could have.
Chris spent his whole life with the fear of letting people in.
His family never spoke to him at all after his sister perished,
They blamed him as she was in fact on her way home from a concert where motionless attended to perform as one of the opening bands when they weren't as popular.
She went with her friends and was what the older generation would call 'young and stupid' and sneaked in alcohol in the venue which was outdoors.
So after his sister's death he thought that that was it,
He had been there and done that. His life drama was over.
This was his sad point that everyone will have eventually.
But no, after that his family blamed him
It started off with the relatives, y'know the grandparents and grandpas and the cousins yelling to never come visit again,
The arguments at the family reunions and at Christmas.
His parents would always defend him and tell him never to take anyone's shit even if it's family.
But time passed and it got to the point where his one mother and father had sided with the others and kicked him out.
He took a break from the band, after the funeral. But when he got kicked out the band was the only thing he could turn to.
Chris was ironically motionless when it came to emotion. He never used to cry to anyone until he Witnessed his family turning him away,
Then the emotion hit him hard.
But in a positive way,
The lyrics became serious, they became meaningful, they became apart of him,
He took his anger and sadness and rage and put it into the album known as creatures.
Then it spread into many more albums.
The band then became  the true motionless in white.
It became its true form.
But even now, the family scarred him slightly
He wouldn't dare let anyone else into his life as he was terrified that something fucked up would happen.
He lives this constant fear that someone was gonna come into his life and only hurt him.
He was terrified when Maddy came into his life.
So yes,
Of course something even more fucked up would happen.
What next he thought

-Chris's POV-
"My family, when they found out that o was pregnant they went crazy, I was the towns whore. Cause they all knew who it was"
I clenched his fists and gritted my teeth
"So the whole town knows about me huh?!" I spat
"No- I didn't mean it like that-
"Well it sounds like it just cause I have metal in my face doesn't mean shit. I have worked my whole life reaching my dream and what have they done! What have you done!"
"I meant they knew it was a one night stand!" She screamed pushing me back,
"Stop yelling!" She screamed again tears rushing down her cheeks
"I dunno what your talking about your the one being aggressive!"
"Your the one that fucked me!" She yelled
I was taken back,
"Who opened her legs! You told me you were gonna go on the fucking pill Laura! I told you I wanted to use protection but you didn't want it!" I screamed in her ear.

"Yeah well people aren't perfect I made a mistake! Haven't you made mistakes Chris?!" She yelled pushing me down onto the sofa.
"Oh yes I have! And you know what I did about that?!" I said standing up higher in my defence
She shook her head.
"I fucking dealt with them!"
"You haven't seen what I've seen!"
"Atleast I deal with things! What have you done but sat in this shitty hospital smoking dope and taking pills everyday!"
"They won't let me leave!" She spat grabbing my shirt,
I grabbed here and bring her to my face
"And you know damn well why Laura you know damn well why" I sneered,
I put her down and my fists loosed as we both sighed,
"I can't get better.."
"Don't say I can't there is always somthing, you have just put it in your head that you can't"
"I try I swear, I just.. I don't know how" she began to cry,
I sighed,
"Come here" I said quietly hugging her tight,
I rubbed her back feeling her spine.
I also noticed her hair falling out.
I gulped and looked over at her pills,
"Okay, you see These I'm taking them away"
"W..wha?
"All of them I mean it, you see the ones they give you at the hospital, if you can try and keep them under your tough just try not to take them they are bad for you, I can help you get out of here"
"But a part of me says I don't want to leave"
I got snapped back into argument mode.
"Laura what do you want?!"
"I want to die!"
"Why is everything I try and do to help always get thrown back at my face as usual!"
"Why are you helping me anyways!"
"I- I don't even know myself! I felt bad for you!"
"Do you love me Chris?"
I looked up at her. My soul still filled with rage.
" I never did, I only felt sorry for you"
I left at that.
I felt bad,
Really bad,
I was so guilty that I couldn't even face Hannah,
I walked past her as she sat on the swing,
"Good day Chris" she said quietly and calmly,
I just nodded and walked past her,
"Told you this is the devils playground, you see everything you don't want to see" I heard her say,
I bit my lip and headed back to ghosts
I need Maddy I always feel like something really bad is gonna happen.

Hey guys
I made a extra long chapter tonight
To make up for last night.
I'm okay now don't worry,
Thankyou for all the lovely comments.
The reason I was sad last night was cause I get under pressure with school really easily and I felt like I wasn't good enough for anyone last night.
I felt like ending it which I have never felt like that in months.
So it was strange and I was worried I was gonna be put back to where I was trapped in the 'abyss' so I am starting my YouTube again so it might help.
Anyways,
Enough rambling,
I hope you enjoyed this chapter,
Comment what you think!
I live you guys very very much!
I'll update tomorrow
Seeya
Gem
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