My Little Black Swan- A Chris Motionless Fan-fiction

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-Chris's POV-
I awoke to Madelyn having another nightmare.
I sighed and headed to her bedroom.
"Please I don't want to!"
"Stop it hurts"
"Your hurting me" she began to cry in her sleep.
"Wake up darling, Maddy it's just a dream please" I said in a panic trying to shake he awake.
She gasped of breathe and sat up.
"It's just a nightmare darling, your alright" I said trying to calm her slightly.
He winced and held her chest and lay back down,
I lay next to her and she rested her head on my chest
"B..but it's not just a dream dad" she began to sob,
I held her close and let my eyes water also.
"I know baby I know, I was there"
"Not for all of it" she snapped.
I held her close, and she huffed my shirt,
"I'm sorry baby I really am I wanted to stop him so so bad but now I have to live with you, broken and scarred with these memories and it's all my fault" I sobbed
"It's not, if I was to blame you I would only be selfish. You saved me"
I kissed her cheek and wiped hers and my tears,
"You know what day it is right"
"yeah" she said sadly.
"You got this, like all the other times" I said holding her hand.

***

Chris and Madelyn reached the all too familiar corridor in the hospital an hour later.
Madelyn wore a tank top and a pair of jeans to the session due to her upper chest and neck had to be viewable for the radio therapy to work.
This time however the nurses were planning Domingo different.

Chris and Madelyn walked link armed down the hallway.
"You alright?"
"Nervous as usual" she said, her hands shaking.
"Come here" he mumbled giving her one last tight squeeze before entering the room.
"Hello Madelyn, you ready?"
She sighed and nodded taking off
"Alright we are gonna to die thing different t with you, I want you to lie on your stomach instead of you back"
She nodded nervously and lay on the bed and taking the straps of her shoulders.
"Okay, one hour here we go" smiled the nurse.
Chris stood at the back of the room while he watched his daughter lay under the strong light.
Chris hated these sessions.
Not only cause the light hurt his eyes, he hated it because he had to stand and watch his little girl lie in pain, getting her pale skin burned under a lamp.
Madelyn moved her head to the side and looked Chris in the eyes as she whimpered and let out shaky breaths in pain.
Chris stood sorrowful, biting down his nails till he barely has any left.
"I-is there not a pain killer or something you can give her, come on she is struggling here"
"We don't allow it,I'm sorry"
" can I atleast hold her hand"
"Sorry sir, you can't go near the light, health and safety issues"
"I beg you," I said while the nurse rolled her eyes and look over at her and then back at me.
"Five minutes,"

-Chris's POV-
I rushed over to her and held her shaky hand.
I grabbed a plastic chair and kissed the back of her hand and putting it against my cheek
"I'm here, I'm here, your okay,"
"I don't think I-I can hold up d-dad," she shook her head crying weakly.
"Don't say that, no no no, you listen to me yeah? I can't stay long but I am right over there and I know it is hard sweetie, I know but I'll hold up if you do"
"I'll try" she sniffled,
I tried to give her a hug however my arm got under the light which automatically burned my skin red raw,
I winced and jumped,
"Back off" said the nurse,
I walked back to the other side of the large room,
"If you tell any worker about this I lose my job, go to the bathroom and run it under cold water"
I nodded.
I ran my arm under the tap and winced as I dried it on some paper towels.
I sighed as I looked myself in the Mirror,
Wiping the tears that I let run down my cheek.
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An hour fell into two, and the nurse finally finished.
Madelyn had passed out just before the last half hour.
As soon as the light stitched off I dashed to her and kissed her grey coloured face.
Her hand gripped my shirt shirts as she began to cry again.
"It's over baby, you did it, well done"
"I love you dad" she whispered in my ear.
"I'm so proud of you, you have no idea" I said holding her close.
"I wanna go home"
"Yeah, me too, let's go home"
I handed her my hoody but she shook her head,
I nodded and took her hand and walked slowly out of the hospital.

When we reached home we noticed that a layer of frost had coated the grass in the front garden.
Madelyn stood still and bit her lip.
I stood next to her,
She grinned and took off her cardigan and lay back on the icy grass.
I chuckled and lay next to her, looking up at the stars.
"Ahhh"
"You want me to run a cold bath?"
"I think I'm good, can I have someone to eat,
"Yeah what do you want"
"Ramen?"
"Great idea"

Hey guys
Sorry I am trying my hardest to get back to the usual routine but I am feeling really depressed at the moment so it's pretty hard to motivate myself to do anything.
I tried to write a school essay but I couldn't bring myself to write any of it.
I have a Halloween thing in with my friends time row and on Monday we are all going to the graveyard so I hope that might make me feel a little better.
My snapchat is Gemma hell of you wanna see us mess around and go to the creepy graveyard.
Anyways I can't get any sleep but I have to atleast try,

Love you guys
Seeya
Gem
Xx