My Little Black Swan- A Chris Motionless Fan-fiction

Thats so sad

-Chris's POV-
It was the last day of tour,
And as always as soon as we get off stage it's time of a celebration,
The whole band gathered, Vinny and Ryan with the chicks, ash Costello joined with the rest of New Year's Day as we wall jammed out to music,
Right now if it was last year I would probably fucking some chick,
But not anymore, that little girl changed my life,
I'm not really the party type anyways, so tonight I spent most of the night standing by the kitchen while ash and Ryan danced around to rob zombie,
Balz and Ryan Ashley both were on the roof snogging each other's face off,
But I heard faint crying coming behind the curtain to where the bunks were,
I went to Ricky's bunk and opened the curtain to see him curled up into a ball,
I frowned and shook his little shoulder,
"Yo Rick you alright" I asked softly
He shook his head no,
I sighed and hopped into the bed and lay next to him staring at the ceiling.
"Rick listen what's bothering  you"
He turned and I got out as he sat up in the bunk,
His legs hung over the edge,
"It's just- I was thinking about madelyn and it's just so sad" he sniffled
"I know I'm s fuck up" I said sadly walking away
I then felt him leap off the bunk and into my back
"Your getting her back right"
"Yeah yeah I am"

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We left tour and I drove home,
Here we go again.
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Chris had hope that getting his daughter back will stop the off tour blues,
But his hands shook with fear for his reunion with his little girl tomorrow,
He didn't know what will happen, or what he will see,
He hasn't seen Madelyn in just under a month and had no idea what life was like in that care home,
He bit his lip as he drove down the dark highway,
His mind taking over.

-Chris's POV-

I remember I told her I loved her and I would never let her go and look what I did to her.
Abandoned her,
Shut her back in that place that she hated the most.
I began to cry As I drove,
"I'm so sorry baby" I cried to myself,
But what if she hates me now, or Linda won't let me have her,
What if someone has adopted her,
Or If she is mute again or she hurt herself or-
I haven't had a panic attack since high school but that one was in class, this once was when I'm driving,
I finally got home safely,
And calmed myself down after about half an hour,
I knocked the farmer across the road to receive banshee,
He looks after him when I go on tour,
I payed him,
"Hey did you know your kid was at your door trying to get in"
"Sh..she was?"
"Yeah at one in the morning, I thought she was with you"
"No uhh things came up, listen I'd love to stay and chat but it's late and I kinda have important business tomorrow and I'm really tired Tim"
"That's alright mate, hope my sheep don't keep you up" he smiled
"Aww that's alright Seeya Tim"
"Bye Chris"
I returned home and saw the drawings on the fridge,
I let out a shaky breath as I leant against the kitchen counter beginning to sob.

Hey guys listen I'm sorry for this other filler and that its short but the cheater you are waiting for will be in the next chapter.
I hope you guys enjoyed their chapter anyways even though it's shit.
I love you guys
Seeya
Gem
Oh and speaking of 'that's so sad' MCR are not getting back together it was just a memorial, they posted it on Facebook so yeah.
Cri
Xxx