My Little Black Swan- A Chris Motionless Fan-fiction

Forgive me

Recommended to play the music at certain point of story xx
Thankyou

-Chris's POV-

I awoke way before my 10 o clock alarm,
Normally when I come off tour i fall asleep like a light.
But not last night, I couldn't get comfy and I was cold, I kept shivering,
I don't understand I turned the heating on and I got extra blankets and a hot water bottle and all that and banshees warm fluffy belly but that still didn't satisfy,
My teeth chattered and I kept tossing and turning in my sleep.
I got out of bed and took a long needed shower, finally i could shower in peace and not have Vinny sneak behind me and pour ice water on me or put shaving foam in my hair.
Or Ryan taking booty shots of me.
Fucking pervs.
But the spacious shower wasn't the main thing on my mind.
Of course all night in fact all tour I thought about Madelyn.
I missed her little face I gotta admit,
I thought I was doing the right thing but then I realised I never knew what I had until it was gone.
I pulled in some jeans, my back aching again from the stage performances and the head bangs.
I brushed my hair and stuck a beanie on and pulled on a bleeding through hoodie and I was off.
Scared to death of course.
My hands got more clammy than ever when I put on my seatbelt.
I started the car but then quickly shut it off and sighed looking at myself in the rear view mirror.
"Man the fuck up damnit" I yelled to myself.
I called balz, he will know what to do.
"You better have good reason to call me early she I just hit back three hours ago" he sang
"I- balz I'm panicking"
"Oh shit I forgot, listen you love her don't you?"
"What kind of a question is that of course I do"
"Then show her!"
"B-but what if she hates me"
"Chris it's better than not trying at all, you came back for her, atleast show her you care enough that you did that listen me and Ryan Ash are exhausted I wish you luck"
I hung up and let out a shaky breath,
Here goes nothing.
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The whole drive there felt like the most important decision of my life was about to happen.
The scariest part was Linda, I bet she hates me.
God I regret so much right now.
I oeoed the door of the building, expecting Madelyn to run up and yell 'Chwis Chwis!'
That's what I hoped but she was no where to be seen.
This place was huge but only a small portion of it is usable.
I saw a little girl around twelve hold madelyns little bunny soft toy, it was all ripped up and she kept rattling it around.
I had a feeling like my insides disappeared, like a strange empty feeling.
I stood in the play room that is always empty, me standing at the door.
"You have returned huh?" I heard a voice
I jumped and turned to see Linda standing with her usual cigarette leaving in the side of the door to her office,
"I-I-
"I knew you'd come back" she said not very amused.
"Where is sh-
"Before anything else I want a word with you"
"Listen I know what I did was wrong and of you are going to get on at me about that-
"Not about you, this is not about you, about her" she said as we both entered her grey office,
Her closing the door and then standing behind her desk.
" there has been a lot of things been happening here after you left"
I gulped
"She got into two fights, snuck out at night and sat under the tree, what looked like she tried to hang herself at one point, she ran away at God knows what time in the morning, we git the police to track her down, and we sat CCTV footage of her getting in a car with a older man, who took her to your place and tired to rape her, she disturbed your neighbours  ran away from the police and assaulted an officer by biting him in the arm and gave him two stitches," she yelled it all so fast I could barely think straight.
"Hey listen if your!-
"No you listen Chris, you listen," she shook her head walking towards me,
The next thing she did shocked me.
She hugged me tightly,
"You have no idea, how happy I am to see you back here, you have no fucking idea" she said angrily tears welling up,
"I've seen it all before, little girls and boys abused then abandoned and left to rot, they get violet, get into trouble, because they have never witnessed love, just violence their whole life. They get into gun fights, don't stick in at school and become unemployed, they live in the poor parts of towns and be friends with the wring crowd and they get into drugs, I've seen what would happen if you never came back today and to that, I say you can have her"

I let out a shake your breath and nodded tears welling up it mine
"That is if she will let you, she wouldn't let anyone touch her like before,"
"Where is she?"
"In isolation"
"Has she been that bad,"
"No uhh the kids were bullying her and she liked the quiet so yeah"
I nodded and headed across the building.
(Music recommended at this point)

I slowly walked along the cold corridor, my shoes making loud sounds.
I walked into the small room to see the abandoned little girl sit on the window ledge staining outside at the grey sky,
The floor creaked and her head turned,
She stared at me blankly and my looked at her seriously,
My mouth was slightly open as if I was about cry but I never did.

**
For the past month Madelyn had dreamed that when Chris came back through those doors to take her home she would run up to him and  leap into his arms and stay in a tight embrace of love.
But she simply couldn't. All her emotion had been drained on missing him so much that she just couldn't handle it and stood still as a rock emotionless.
Chris was in the same position.
He couldn't do it.
They both loved each other to the moon and back but they just stood there.

-Chris's POV-
I made words up to speak but my body just didn't seem to let them out.
I fell to my knees letting a single tear drop down my cheek,
And let out my arms
All the things I wanted to say,
All the things I wanted to do,
But all I could manage was a faint
"F-forgive me"
She tilted her head a little, tears falling down her cheeks also, but she still stayed silent as a mouse and so did I.
She walked up to me slowly hesitating to cuddled my torso, but the stopped,
I looked at her with begging and sorrow in my eyes,
Her weak cold little hands unzipped my hoodie and she curled up onto my lap,
Using my chest as a pillow as she wrapped my hoodie around her,
I let out a sharp breath as I looked down at her holding her closer,
Her eyes were closed,
And she let out a simple,
"I love you daddy" she said with a shaken weak voice.
***
Although Chris felt in no way that he deserved to be called her father, however Chris let it slide as he did not care. He had is world in his arms and he was not loosing her again.
Madelyn knew he did not like the fact he was getting called a dad but wanted to test so she knew that she could trust him again.

From that moment on Chris and Madelyn's sat in that cold room for a little while longer.
It was cold yes, but they both kept each other warm,
"I'm taking you home and I'm not letting you go okay,?"
She smiled and gripped his shirt,

-Chris's POV-
" we need to talk when we get back okay, you sleepy?"
"Yeah I missed your bed time cuddles and kisses Chwis"
"I missed them too baby doll, I missed them so much" I sniffled tears welling up
I kissed her forehead and stood up
I walked downstairs and I saw Linda smile with pride putting her hand over her heart as she waved good bye,
I buckled  her in the car and tucked her hair behind her ear
"Come on let's go Home"

Hello everyone
I hope you enjoyed this chapter.
You have been waiting for this chapter so here it is xx
I hope the high dosage of feels in this touches you
That sounds weird.
Also my heart goes out to Munich in Germany,
With the terrorist attack.
One of my family members are in Munich at the moment so we are all really worried,
I hope he is safe..
Any ash I love you guys
Comment your reaction or what you think
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Seeya
Gem
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