My Little Black Swan- A Chris Motionless Fan-fiction

Vunerable

-Chris's POV-

"L..lung cancer?"
"Yeah Rick, lung cancer" I said sadly,
"Oh my god,i can't believe it, how?" He said getting stressed out pacing the dark living room.
"Just the way she was brought up Ricky,"
"It's unfair! She doesn't deserve this"
"Rick! I know! Please will you just leave me alone I need time alone" I snapped getting emotional.
"very well, I'll tell the rest the news, hang in there, tell Maddy I love her" sighed Rick,
Slamming the front door.
I sighed and headed upstairs.
I decided to tuck Madelyn one last time,
I opened the bedroom door and she flinched taking her ear off the side of the door.she looked up at me scared backing away,
"We're you and wicky from getting cause I'm sick?"
"No, baby absolutely not, Rick is scared too that's all"
"Daddy?" She whispered.
"Right here"
"The nurse said I'm dying, am I dying?"
"I won't let you. I'll make sure that you'll get over this" I said picking her up and rucking her in.
"I love you dad"
"Love you more Madelyn"

I headed down stairs.
I sat in the kitchen.
I never thought I'd say this but I have a large urge to just drink a fuck load of whiskey or some thing.
I looked over at the fridge to see a picture that my little one drew of us both.
I sniffled and let tears drop into my mug of tea.
My back hunched and bobbed up and down as I sobbed quietly so Madelyn couldn't hear.
I want her to sleep.
The thought of the chemo and radio therapy made my chest hurt.
I hugged myself as I tried to make myself as small as I felt.
A lot of people don't know that I can be vulnerable because I am known as the tough guy,
With the tattoos, and metal in my face and the long hair.
But this, this is my vulnerable, my weak state.
I sat next to sleeping banshee on the floor and let tears shed.

-madelyns POV-

I lay in bed wiping my own tears away,
I looked sadly at the Empty space that was next to me.
I sighed and got out of bed and headed down stairs.
I sighed and saw Chwis sitting on the floor passed out.
I walked over to him and kissed his cheek.
He starred in his sleep and woke up,
"Come on dad, I think you should get to bed you wook weally tired"
He nodded weakly and got up,
I took his hand and took him upstairs.
I lay next to him and he wrapped his long arms round me.
I took in all the bright colours of his tattoos.
"It will be okay daddy, even if something goes bad, remember what I said, the things we lose always find their back to us somehow""
"I won't lose you," he said kissing my cheek.
I let in a sharp breath which hurt yet again,
"I don't know if I can keep a promise" I whispered,
"Hmm?"
"Nothing"

Hey guys,
Hope you enjoyed this chapter,
Another filler yet again.
I am leaving for America on Tuesday.
But I will be writing,
Last year I said I wouldn't update for two weeks,
But hoe story I end up updating Anyways,
Just not as frequently,
Anyways comment what you think,
Love you guys,
Seeya
Gem
Xxx