My Little Black Swan- A Chris Motionless Fan-fiction

Not the same anymore..

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"I win ha ha ha! Suckers!" Yelled Ryan throwing the X box controller around the bus,
"Yeah yeah, whatever you cheat" sighed vinny.
Chris let out a chuckle and sipped his coffee by the counter,
It was about half way through the tour and Medellin and Chris were.. Well,
Quite.
They never really spoke. Chris was busy with shows and signing and Madelyn was asleep for most of the day.
The chemo had gotten to her also. She sleeps during the day and stays up at nights.
She is fond of ash Costello from New Year's Day and Jonathan Davis, the front man from the band Korn.
They spoke a little, ash mostly and because more of so friends.
It was Chris's first proper day off on tour, the rest of his 'off'  days were packed with its interviews and photo shoots.
He decided to head outside to see his little one.

-Chris's POV-

I headed outside into the cold and noticed Madelyn sitting silently on the roof of the bus looking  out into the peach sky and sun set.
How the hell did she get up there?
I found a tree and decided to climb it.
I got myself in the bus and sat next to dazed Madelyn who did not notice me sitting next to her.
"Pretty huh?" I said breaking the silence.
She looked over at me.
"I like coming  up here, it's peaceful"
I smiled,
"How are you feeling" I asked putting my hand over hers.
"Tired" she shrugged.
"Yeah?"
"I miss your bedtime cuddles"
I put her arm round her and brung her to my side.
"I'm sorry I haven't been around lately darling, I'll make it up to you I promise"
"Can we go over there then daddy?" She asked pointing to a fountain across the street.
I smiled and stopped her up and hopping down.
I took her to the water fountain and helped her up onto the side.
She gasped at the lights that were in the water,
"Pwetty lights" she said so mesmerised at such a simple thing.
"C..can I touch it?" She said looking up to me,
"Go ahead" I smiled,
She fluttered her hand in the water, giggling and laughing.
"What are these things" she asked picking up some pennies from the bottom of the fountain,
"Those are people's wishes, throw a coin in and make a wish"
"Wow, like magic?"
"Well. We can always try" I smiled,
She gasped,
"You would let me has a wish?!"
I smiled getting out my wallet and handed her a coin,
She carefully took the simply penny and looked up at the sky
"What you thinking?" I asked,
"I dunno what wish to make"
"How about to make you better" I said putting my arm round her,
She shook her head no,
"No, I has something better"
"Oh? Alright,"
She closed her eyes and and threw in the coin.
She sighed and rested her head on my shoulder.
"What do you want to do now? The night is still young"
" I don't know this place" she shrugged,
There is a beach just down the road, you wanna go?"
"But it's night"
"You wanna go back then?"
"No let's go"
I smiled and took her hand,
We headed down to the beach, the sky now a lilac colour that was slowly turning into a blue.
The sun was already almost below the horizon.
I chuckled and grabbed her hand and we both ran across the wet sand.
"Ha ha I haven't done this since I was a kid! Ain't this fun?!" I yelled getting a nostalgic rush.
"Weeee!!!"
I laughed and ran along the water jumping the small waves that came under my feet.
I suddenly felt a tug in my arm when I noticed Madelyn wasn't running anymore.
She stood having a  coughing fit

"Oh shit, sorry honey I forgot"
She sat down in the sand sadly looking at her shoes.
"I'm sorry Chwis I- I'm just not the same anymore. " she said biting her lip.
I looked down, she was right.
No matter how hard it was to believe and how much I want to deny it.
She had lung cancer.
she could barely breathe,
She can barely do anything active without making her self physically sick, or even losing the will to breathe properly,
My baby, my little girl, I might loose her.
She can slip from me at any time.
"Does it hurt?" Was all I could make out.
"Yes. But what hurts the most is what people say"
"What do you mean"
"I really wanted to become a dancer daddy" she began to cry,
"But they all say I can't, the doctors and the teacher." She sobbed.
I let a tear slip myself.
"You'd let me dance though, you'd let me be a ballet wouldn't you daddy?"
There was a silence.
"Yeah, in fact  yeah. Of course I do. You have every right to live your dream no matter what is wrong with you"
She smiled and wiped her tears,
I hugged her tight, her face against my warm chest.
"Did you know that all my teachers said I couldn't sing?"
"All of them?"
"Yeah"
"Why though, your a singer"
"I couldn't sing in the school choirs no matter how hard I tied to get in"
"Aww that's sad"
"One time I did get into the choir though"
"Really"
"Yeah but guess what they put me as"
"What?"
"The boy the sweeped the stage after each show"
"Aww oh well I bet you were a good sweep boy"
I chuckled and kissed her cheek.
"Come on darling let's get back to the bus"

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I carried Maddy back to the bus when I heard our bus driving who was clearly cleaning out the bathroom,
"Okay I dunno what you guys do in there but who ever is shaving their fucking pubes please stop!" He yelled,
"What you going on about now Mark?" Groaned vinny,
"Have you seen all the hair that has been clogging up the shower drain?!"
I felt Maddy squeeze my hand,
"It's alright it's not your fault" I whispered,
She hugged my arm and I decided to call it a night,
For this first time me and Maddy decided to share bunks.
We both lay in fetal position in the cosy warm covers,
"hey what was your wish from before"
"So that I would be the same age as you"
"why is that"
"So we could grow old together"
I felt my heart flutter and my nose made a strange sensation which made my eyes water.
I held her closer,
"I. Love you my sunshine"
"I love you too Chwis"

Hey guys,
How are you all?!
I hope your all okay,
America has been great so far,
I am not used to the heat but it's been great.
Anyways  I am exhausted,
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Gem
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