An Outlet: Part 2

30 November, 2017.

I had a long day in college today.

Nothing eventful really happened during college hours apart from the fact that Kristen got punished because of me. Well, punished is too harsh a word for what happened; she had to change her place from next to mine because we couldn't stop talking. I guess I should've listened to her and not sat on the first bench, right in front of the professor lol.

Oh one more thing happened. I was discussing about further studies plans with my friends. We have got an offer to do a one year course at either LSE or Westminster for our third year and give our degree exams in October 2019 instead of April 2019. I am really confused as to what I exaclty want to do in life. Do I really want to study abroad? I am terrified of the thought of living with random people because I know I won't be able to cope up with the student culture there. I don't drink or smoke, I have never gone clubbing, I don't do hookups, I don't apply make-up, I don't have good fashion sense. I will feel really out of place there. My roomates won't like me because of the aforementioned reasons and life would just suck.

After college we had a meeting for an upcoming big event in our college.

This event is called 'Career Day'. It's the flagship event of my college. We set up a fair sort of a thing where there are several workshops conducted all over the campus. Visitors can come and go to any workshop of their liking. Since it's a three school event (design, communication and business), the visitors get a flavour of all the three types of career choices. There is also a big room assigned for one-on-one career counseling sessions. We also have flash mobs and open mic thing on the corridors for crowd pulling. Basically, it's a huge marketing gimmick for all three colleges. This is why the Career Day is targeted towards students from 8th to 10th grade.

There is a lot of planning, organising and managing that goes on before and during the Career Day.

Last year, I was a last minute helper and had to create and make multiple changes to various flyers while assisting one of the 'perfectionist' professors.

This year, I've gone a couple of notches ahead and am actively involved in the planning stage as well. The management randomly came up to Ms. Paula amd asked her to take a workshop on 'To the Moon and Back'. She had to figure the entire workshop out. Naturally, she reached to the WORD members for help. I was apprehensive in the beginning but soon came up with ideas and took this task very seriously. I came up with a general concept and one good activity. I helped build up on the other activities and made a final document of what our workshop was going to be like. I was the driving force behind this workshop. Ofcourse, Ms. Paula was the face and the final approver but this workshop is finally getting a defined structure all because of me.

This is why I got pretty pissed by the end of the main Career Day meeting. Obviously Ms. Paula would need more than 1 person to help her during the actual day. We both couldn't have managed everything so she reached out to a couple of students including Darcy. Obviously Darcy agreed. So all the helpers were also decided. During the main meeting, Ms. Martha was dividing the volunteers into separate groups for taking care of different aspect of the events. The volunteers were divided into:
-> Workshop volunteers (who will helping inside the respective rooms)
-> School volunteers (who will be taking responsibility of their assigned school kids)
-> Entertainment volunteers (for flash mob and open mic)
-> Registration volunteers
-> Hospitality volunteers
-> Floor Runners

When Ms. Martha asked who are the volunteers for Ms. Paula's workshop, both Darcy and I raised our hands (we were sitting next to each other) and she put Darcy incharge of the workshop. WHAT THE FUCK WOMAN?! I am the one staying back everyday in college to work on this. I am the one who did the ideation for the workshop. I am the one who made that activities document. I am the driving force behind the workshop AND YOU PUT DARCY INCHARGE?! That bitch hasn't done shit for Career Day. Why are you side lining me? And what irks me is that Ms. Martha knows that Ms. Paula is my mentor, she knows I'm close to her, she knows how much I've worked under her but she still didn't put me incharge. I don't understand what kind of revenge is she taking on me. Is it because I refused to follow the herd to lick her ass?

Yes, I didn't take any initiative last year. Darcy was always in the forefront while I was like her shadow but this year, I've worked my butt off. I'm not at all an attention freak. I just cannot stand someone else get credit for work that I have done. It irks me to no end. I didn't say anything to anyone tho. I didn't want to create a scene.

After the main meeting and after another breif meeting with Ms. Paula, I met up with Gurtley. We had to finish up our Marketing submission today.

I got to know a few things about Gurtley today. She is a perfectionist and takes competitions very seriously. She understands politics and can manipulate people too. She is very careful and hides her jealousy under disgust. I can even go to an extent and say that she is two faced.

But as long as I'm not getting hampered by it, I'm cool with it. We spent hours making a single document. Ofcourse we fooled around a bit and mimicked a few iconic movie scenes. But yeah, at around 6:30PM, we finally got done with the first phase of our project and left for home. Her mom scolded us for being such workaholics.

I bought myself a Frankie on my back home and got an Email from college. That's when I came to know that I was in the top 10 rankers list and was going to get felicitated for it. I was also going to get felicitated for being one of the toppers in the Management subject. I was so happy.

I came home and asked my dad to check his mail. The look on my family's face made me feel so good I can't begin to explain. My parents were very proud of me. My dad kissed me too. He hasn't done that in so many years. My heart is so full of happiness.

I want to continue watching my parents feel proud of me and Alex. It truly is a wonderful sight.