The LoveShot

Scene XXI: Talk

She turned away from him as soon as he finished and took his place beside her, panting. There were no words as he usually would say. There was no cuddling, no talking about what was going on with him and the band lately and it began to eat away at her skin. Though, because she had not the right words to say, she just closed her eyes and allowed a silent tear to fall to compensate for the emptiness she felt inside. Somehow, he sensed something was wrong and sighed.

"What?" He said in a low voice. She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion, but said nothing, thinking that he was talking to himself. She felt him shift a little in the bed as he turned his body towards her back. "Baby.." He said, lightly touching her back causing her to flinch ever so slightly. "Baby, what's wrong?" His eyes softened as he heard her sniffle before attempting to discretely wipe her eyes and sighing. "Are you crying?" His voice concerned as he hovered over her to catch a glimpse of her face.

"I'm fine." She mumbled, causing him to sigh.

"Don't lie to me like that. Just tell me what's wrong." He pulled her body to lay flat on the bed so that she could look up at him. His expression immediately softened upon seeing her red face accompanied by her cold, blank stare. "Please tell me what's wrong. Was it something I did?"

"No.. I mean, it's just.. I just feel so used sometimes.." She mumbled as she tried to hold back the lump in her throat that was forming.

"Used?" His voice became sharp and defensive as his eyes gave her a sharp look of confusion.

"Listen, listen. It's just that lately, you've been out doing your thing and I miss you, but all you ever wanna do when you come back is screw me and- and then.." She retreated back into her shell upon seeing him roll his eyes with a scoff.

"Wow.. Used, huh? So you don't think I love you anymore, huh?"

Lee, no. It's not that. I just-"

"I can't believe this." He scoffed himself into a laugh as he sat up and placed his face in his hand.

"Lee, if you would just relax and listen-"

"I can't believe that even after all this time, you still don't trust me."

"Lee, stop. That's not what I meant."

"Really?" His eyes seemed to pierce through her soul claiming dominance over her hurt that his pain was much greater than hers. "Are you sure about that? Because it really sounds like your mindset about me really hasn't changed much since we first met, Li. It really does and that hurts." Li Qi's face began to turn red as she felt herself begin to cry again, so she hid her face her hands and turned back over towards the wall.

"I can't do this." She whispered to herself as she cried. A few seconds passed before she heard him sigh again, placing a hand on her arm.

"Baby, I'm sorry. I've just been so stressed. I'll listen. I promise."

"No, because I feel like you'll just twist everything I have to say and I don't want that!" She cried. "I just really want this to work, but you never talk to me. You just show up and want sex. That's it. And I just.." She sighed in frustration. "..feel so used!" He sat in silence allowing her words to sink in for a moment.

"I'm sorry that my way of dealing with anger upsets you." He started off, calmly. "It's just that everyday, I come from being in a very tense, highly demanding environment and that takes so much out of me. At the end of my days of fighting with the boys, all I want every night is to just.." he bit his lip as he squeezed his eyes shut for a brief moment.

"You've been fighting with the boys?" She asked in a worried tone immediately flipping back over to inspect his face.

"Remember how I told you about how you have that thing about you that makes me forget who and what I am when I'm around you everyday?" He paused, slowly lifting his head up from looking at the sheets. "At the end of every single day, all I could ever want is to replenish myself with you." His words drifted off as he stared at her. "I love you, Li." She felt in her heart how his words moved her and sighed.

"I Love You Too." She saw him crack a small smile as he reached for face to plant a sweet kiss on her lips. "But.." She pushed him away before he could get a second kiss. "Can't we just talk instead of having sex?" She looked up at his blank expression before watching him nod.

"Okay." He sighed. "I'll do that - for you." He continued nodding.

"Why are you fighting with the boys?"

"Do we have to start talking talking about it now? I mean, you're supposed to be my happy place."

"Baby, I know sex is how you vent your anger, but it doesn't solve anything. If we just talk this out, maybe I can help you."

"You could never help me with this." He shook his head as the bullet pushed its way even deeper into Li Qi's heart. Taking note of her sorrow, he sighed and confessed. "One of the members left the group." She was taken back by his words, but then internalized them, avoiding his eyes.

"Was it because of me?" She quietly asked.

"Who told you that?" His voice became filled with rage.

"No one. It's just that, I'm here. I hear things. I'm not dumb."

"Things like what?"

"I hear the way you and Jun argue and I notice how he looks at me when we're together. It's like he's looking at me like I'm a sin."

"Well, you don't have to worry about him anymore." He said, rolling his eyes.

"What do you-?"

"He's the one who left." She couldn't help but feel guilty about it. She couldn't help but feel like she caused this mess; but it hurt even worse that she had no idea of how to clean it all up.