Game of Love

Notice

Hi, everyone.

I've missed you all so much.

First of all, I want to sincerely apologize. I'm so sorry for making you wait for such a long time. It's been what, 5 years? 6 years? It's been so long since I last reached out to all of you here. I suddenly decided to go on hiatus due to personal reasons, and back then, I had no choice but to leave Wattpad temporarily. I'm so sorry for making that drastic decision, without consulting all of you or making an announcement about it. I feel so guilty for leaving you hanging here... for abandoning the characters I created without finishing their stories... and for vanishing like that without completing the story you came to love. Ni hindi ko man lang kayo nabigyan nang maayos na paliwanag.

Now, I'm writing this letter to inform all of you about what will happen to the story I left unfinished, and for this journey of mine as a writer. I don't know how you'll take this, but if you're gonna be mad or disappointed with me, I completely understand. You guys have every right to feel that way. Your feelings are valid, and your opinions matter to me, especially for those of you who waited patiently all these years.

Before I decided to leave Wattpad back then, I made a conscious effort to do everything I could to regain what I had lost. Kasi iniisip ko dati na "bago ako mawala, kailangan ko munang tapusin ang story para sa mga readers ko." I really gave it my all, but after months of trying, I just couldn't (if you're familiar with writer's block, that's what I experienced at that time). I was so happy whenever you commented on my updates—it gave me the strength to keep writing. But perhaps I was truly a mess at that time because, even with your overwhelming support, I still couldn't bring myself to write. That's why I stopped. Pero ang mali ko, hindi ako nagpaalam nang maayos sa inyo.

You didn't deserve that kind of treatment from me, especially since all you ever did was support me wholeheartedly. I did you wrong, and for that, I'm really really sorry :<

It took me years to come back. During the time I was away, hindi ako gumamit ng wattpad. I found a new hobby, moved on with my life, and became busy—but the guilt of leaving you behind and not finishing the story of the characters I love haunted me everyday. That's why last year, I tried to get back on it. Sinubukan kong magsulat ulit. But then, I found out that I could no longer open my wattpad account. Noong mga panahong wala ako, ang dami na palang nagbago..

I panicked when I found out I couldn't open my account. I couldn't access it. I had no idea what to do at that moment, and I was so scared that I might never be able to talk and connect with all of you again. Wala pa naman akong back up copy ng mga stories ko sa account na ito because back when I was writing them, hindi pa uso ang Gdocs at hindi ko rin gamay ang Word. Sa sobrang takot ko, I made a new account, but deep down in my heart, I knew I couldn't give up on this one. I didn't want to contact all of you using the new account that I made (with a different name) because this is where I met you.

It took me months to recover this account, medyo strikto rin kasi ang Wattpad comm and honestly hindi ko na talaga maalala ang mga hinihingi nila kaya natagalan ako na bawiin ito. I was only able to succeed in retrieving it this year, and I was so glad noong ma-access ko ulit ang account ko na ‘to because then I would have a way to contact all of you na. Ayokong iwan kayo sa ere na lang basta that's why I did everything I could to get this back. You deserve an explanation from me.

I read all of your messages, comments, and posts on my profile. I was so touched when I found out that all these years, you guys never gave up on me. I was so moved that I cried because I could still feel your warm support even now. Iniisip ko, deserve ko ba itong suporta na binibigay niyo sa kabila ng pag-iwan ko sa inyo ng ilang taon? Grabe kayo magmahal... Kahit noon pa man, sobra sobra na ang suporta na ibinibigay niyo sa akin. Kayo ang rason kung bakit ako nagsusulat. I was so loved by you, and I felt proud na kayo ang readers ko.

But when I started writing again—I'll be completely honest with you—nothing came to my mind. When I tried to continue this story, it suddenly felt so foreign to me. Parang bigla, hindi ko na kilala ang mga characters sa kwentong ako mismo ang gumawa. I was so mad at myself for doing this to my characters. Ang sabi ko babawi ako—that I would do everything I could to finish this story—but shit, I still failed. Ayokong ipilit dahil mababago sila. Hindi ko sila ganito sinulat. I didn't want to do Amethyst and Klyx dirty just because of my own selfishness.

But I also didn't wanna come back here with nothing. Ano, naghintay kayo nang sobrang tagal sa akin para lang sa wala? Of course, I cannot allow that. Wala na akong mukhang maihaharap sa inyo kung ito lang ang iiwan ko. You guys waited for me, so it's only fair that I try to make up for the time and support you gave me after all these years..

I'm so, so grateful for you guys. Thank you so much for waiting. Ang saya ko na kayo ang readers ko. Alam niyo kung sino-sino kayo.. <3

With that said, the next update will be the last chapter of Game of Love. Hindi po iyon FINAL chapter, bale last update lang po because sadly, I can't continue this story right now :< I am planning to unpublish this story along with That Guy. Gusto ko kasi na ayusin muna sila kung sakali mang mahanap ko na ang sarili kong ipagpatuloy silang muli. Kung sakali mang mai-publish ko ulit ito sa future, I want to make sure they are the best versions of themselves. I'm saying this to you now because I don't want to repeat the mistake I made before na basta basta na lang ako umalis nang hindi kayo sinasabihan.

I'm really sorry, guys, that it had to end this way :(( I will miss Amethyst and Klyx so much... I will miss our very own bato and parekoy, and all the characters in Game of Love... I hope, in some way, their story was able to bring you happiness, peace, and comfort.

As for my writing journey, I plan to start again. After all, this is my way of making it up to you. I will put all my sweat, effort, and heart into finishing it this time. And if you're still interested, you are welcome to read them—anytime :)

Thank you for reading Game of Love and That Guy. I hope na kahit papaano, napasaya kayo nitong mga kwentong isinulat ko.

Na kahit papaano, napasaya ko kayo.

Thank you to all of you, my precious readers. I love you all with all my heart.

Love,
Idyllexyumsss