Turning Table

Part 7

Part 7

“If you’re brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello.” – Paulo Coelho

🌹Rosetta🌹

Being home was not as fulfilling as I thought it would be, they say home is where the heart is I only felt that three hours ago when I got here but now these walls feel cold to me

I kept doing the one thing I hated the most, being stuck in my own head, my mother is not a talkative person by nature, she spends her time watching t.v or knitting, never opens her mouth unless she has something to say or I ask something.

I felt like a caged bird all over again in this house, The voices inside my head had awakened from their peace as they hissed in a whisper through my ears. They slithered inside my mind and through my  thoughts, entrancing me under a spell of anxiety, spilling all of my  worries that I had stored away
" you want tea baby?"
She said walking into my room, I stop walking around and look at her, she has a worried look,
Me: no thanks "
Her: ok "
She walked out, that her for you if you don't tell she won't ask,

I took my cigarette and walked out,
" I'm going to get bread ma "
Her: we have bread in the house and we just ate supper"
Me: I prefer low GI"
Her: mmmm"
She said looking at me under her  glasses

I jumped into my car and almost knocked it off as I heard something buzzing in the cup holder, it's a cellphone

I looked at the caller ID and it was a Joburg dialing code, I press the answer button and kept quiet
' it's Ginger are you ok?'
Me: are you tracking me?"
Her: No... "
Me: I'm fine Ginger can you leave me alone! "
Her: look I know you hate me and all that bull shit but I was hoping I run something by you "
Me: I'm listening "
Her: meet me in Durban tomorrow at 13:00 ... I will send you a location "

Me: what is this about? "
Her; I can't talk over the phone "
Me; and if I say no? "
Her: I don't give damn, we all have our own choices to make right ?"
I bite my lip thinking
Me: I have to go "
Her: just remember that  we were once married to the pro's in the organized crime business, if we put our minds to it, building an empire for our own can not be that hard   "
I frowned listening to her
Her:  just as food for thought...I have sent you the  location, If you still have the drive to be independent I guess I will see you there "

She dropped the call on me, I turned off the engine and thought about the money in my bag, it a lot of money but life is expensive, I think about me finding a Job, urg my degree is useless now with a criminal record I can't do shit with it, rather alone get a job anywhere.

I can't take down Oyama being just an Ex-wife who is hung up on revenge, The man is powerful I will need to be very influential to be powerful enough to take him down,

I stop smoking and think of my Son any shit that I will do wrong now will result in me going back to jail again, I know that the cops are still shadowing me, im the link to Oyama they will want to use me to get to him, I can't be doing shady business it's too risky. . . but what choice do I have? But as Ginger said we all have our choice to make.

" Fuck !!"

I said kicking the ground,

I  made my way inside the house and found my mother on the phone
" Zuko khawumamele for once in your life ... "
Zuko: Makhulu I don't know that women, I don't even have pictures of her in my memory "
Ma: Zuko!
Zuko: I'm bussy Makhulu I will see you in a few weeks town, please don't force me to love a woman that never raised me "
Ma sigh
Him: I love you and will call you ngomso"

She dropped the call after they said their goodbyes and when she turned our eyes meet,
Her: how long have you been standing there?"
Me; long enough "
Her: he will come soon just that and andiyazi ukuba izobe yinini na leyomini?"
Me: do you have his address
Her: Rose wait for him he will come "
Me: I'm his mother and I just want to meet him, I know I don't stand a chance having a relationship with him so I will just say hi and go"
She looked down, I went to my room took my bags, I haven't even spent 24 hours in this house already I'm leaving again but what can I say I'm suffocating in this house, these walls are like an ocean, I feel like I'm drowning. I feel it, between my chest and my throat, the weight of it stretching outside me, like a dead fish on the shore.

I love my mom but I need to find myself first to be able to breathe around her.
Her: when will I see you again?"
Me: soon Ma I promise "
She sighs and hugged me,
Her: Rose doesn't go chasing waters, God has given you a second chance use it to better your life"
Me: I know Ma, I plan to do just that "
She handed me a piece of paper with Zuko's address his number and her number on it.

Me: I have to go ma"
She just nodded, while I kissed her cheek, and walked out.

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