Turning Table

Part 142

***Head Ache***

🌹Rosettar🌹

"We have a new strategy in play, and divorcing Oyama is not the one..."

I nodded as if I was listening to Kevin however my mind trails off, and I become sami deaf as Kevin's voice becomes this fading melody in my head,
I look at Sandile standing by the window, and my head starts to ache, It weighs heavy
Upon these restless shoulders of mine
I keep asking myself that am I trying to live my life? Or is detected?
Am I following my own path?
A winner in a one-man race, and a loser in another? At this point, I don't know!
Everyone keeps telling me
I'm heading in the right direction...
But I feel like I've just been standing in the same place.

I can feel the rhythm of my heart
Beat slow and beat fast
Trying to get my head out of the gutter
And get it out of the past, but this nightmare that comes with being married to Oyama will not stop!

I run my hand on my forehead and I could feel my head inadequately aches in the center of my cerebrum.
So many thoughts inside my head
Do I ignore or do I keep them?
Focusing on what I need to do to survive...

But where do I begin when I feel so disconnected from life itself?
I have so many doors to open which requires I first Open my  mind, cause that's the keyhole of my problem

But how I'm not lost, I am not lonely
I am not mad nor am I sad
I'm just trying to figure out this game called ' My Life '

I look at Kevin talking but I'm confused as fuck
I feel like I am drowning in an ocean and I keep sinking to the bottom.

I start reminiscing to what  my mother used to say to me,
" God has a plan for you...this too shall pass"
But how is that even possible? When all I see is that God  must have just forgotten me"
I run my hand on the back of my neck, My neck is sore
Because of these thoughts
That weighs me down

My stomach turns with the sickness of conformity
I let out a huge sigh as I feel  my mind racing
On a track with no finish,
Thoughts spin, round and round
And I never get any answers
Cause I can't put my thoughts into words,
I can't express the ramble that is in my brain in any language
I can't focus on one thing as my head gets overclouded!

" KERVEN I SAID THAT'S ENOUGH!"

Sandile's loud voice brought me back to earth, I feel his arms around my shoulder, and I look up, when did he sit next to me?

Kevin: Sandile ...you forget that you called me with information, and I'm only trying to do my Job here "
Sandile: I know, and thank you for that, but let me do mine ok!"
Kevin stood up dropped some files on the coffee table and looked at me

"I guess that busted loved you after all since he diced to leave his entire empire to you "
Me: what?"
Sandile: Thank you Kevin...will chat later "
He nodded and walked out

Me: what is he talking about?"
I turned and asked Sandile
Him; have you eaten anything? "
He said looking into my eyes
Him: God damnit Rose when last  did you rest or eat a proper meal ?"
Me: I'm fine " I said reaching out for the file noted " Nqeve Minerals" on the table
Me: what is this?"
Him: your future, but you can  read it later, can I please feed you first?"
Me;...
Him: I'm not taking no for an answer " he said standing up and offering me his hand to hold, I looked up at him and smiled,  reached out and held his hand standing up and facing him, with my furrowed eyebrows
Him: Hay hay... it's ok, everything is going to be ok"

Me: I don't know what to do, I'm required to fix things I have no control over, why is this happening to me?"

Him:my love you need to understand that,  you  can't make a picture with puzzle pieces that don't match, You can't ask yourself to draw a painting if you do not have a canvas, learn to understand that something are just beyond your control "
Me: but Muntu..."
Him: I told you to leave that matter to me"

I closed my eyes as I felt my face rest on his chest,
Him: I got you, and I will not allow anyone to hurt you ever again"
It's how he talks to me and holds me that I feel so safe with him.
In his arm, I have found my peace, but peace never last long in my life, as my phone started to ring, I wanted to answer it so quickly as I find my ringtone these days the most irritating sound of them all.

"don't answer that, " Sandile said
Me: it might be important "
I untangle myself from his arms and picked up my phone and answer
Me: this better be good "
" Wow," the voice on the receiver said, it was Sam

Me: Khuluma Sam please "
Him: we have a problem, I think we not going to conduct any shipments for a while, I have run into a trap"
Me:what trap?"
Him: it's a long story, but me and my partner we will be off the greed till we figure a way to resolve this shit "
Me: what the fuck, first it's my manager who dropped me without a warning and goes missing now it's you!  God damn it! Sam you my eyes and ears at the bar,
I trust you more than anyone there... You can't leave now! "
Him: I know, trust me I don't want to do this as well but  I have no choice, look I have run a few interviews while you were gone and I found two outstanding floor managers, trustworthy and they have proven to be loyal"
Ma: what? you hired people without..."
Him: it's my job to keep this business going, just trust me, I did a background check on them and I know they won't disappoint"
I breathe out loud feeling defeated
Me: so what now?"
Him: nothing is going to change take as much time as you need to sort out your personal matter I will overlook on the business side of things even when I'm not around "
Me: thank you..."
Him: don't thank me just be careful I believe we have a common enemy...that is why I'm trying to make this business legit as possible no loopholes for them use, to put you back in jail "
Me: what?... What enemy?
Him: I have arranged that you get gambling licenses everything is set just need to sign a few docs that I have already sent to you via email..."

I ran my hand on my hair,
Me: God damnit Samkelo who the fuck is this enemy ?"
He stopped talking and breath out loud
Him: Muntu...she is not who you think she is, be careful around her "
Me: Muntu!"
Him: I got to go...will chat later "
Me: Sam...Samkelo!"
I screamed at the phone but the line was already dead
Me: fuck!"

Sandile: what?" he asked with his eyes glowering  at me
Me: Muntu is going after my business..."
Him: she won't stand a chance...if only she knew how powerful you are now"
Me: Sandile you taking this way too lightly...did you hear me...she is..."
My phone started ringing again damn it will I ever catch a break...I looked at the screen and noticed that Zuko is calling me, a hint of panic rushed over me as I answered the phone

" Zuko are you alright?"
Him: yes I am, but I need you to get to the hospital right now!'
Me: what!"
Him: NOW MOTHER!!"

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To be continued