Turning Table

Part 68

***Remember diamonds are created under pressure so hold on, it will be your time to shine soon.***

🌹Liyana🌹

Italy was amazing, the shopping the food the touring and sightseeing it was out of this world, best two weeks of my life till I finally came back to South Africa,

Ntsika wanted to spend more time with me and we had another two weeks at his house, we were in our little bubble, till I realize this was just him asking me to move in with him indirectly,

" I have work Ntsika"
Him: it's in Durban "
Me: my life is there not here "
Him: my life is with you Liya...how many times must I tell you that!"

I don't know what got me mad the most, is it the fact that I loved him too much not to picture my life without him, and ignoring the pink elephant in the room, that our families come from different walks of life,

It can never work I kept telling myself, but Ntsika was too possessive to even care of what I think.
As much as we have been dating for almost three months now. He hadn't dated for a few years before he meet me, because he was so wrapped up in work, and family stuff, so in a sense dating again is somewhat "new" to him not an excuse for his behavior, just an explanation. He constantly gets self-conscious and upset at the prospect that he's "not making me happy ", and we've been fighting about it constantly and I'm not sure how to help him get over it, or if it's even possible. I love him a lot but he clearly has some controlling...insecurity issues, and while I want to be with him, I can't shake the feeling that this relationship it's getting too serious for my liking.

So in the midst of our crazy fight, I found myself packing my bags and I came back home...just to get a breather from my crazy love affair with King Bhngu, and to my astonishment, I found my house a mass and lord do I wish to strangle Mpume for turning my house into a hoe house.
With my phone switched off, I spent the whole day cleaning the house, no matter how much I scrubbed, mopped the floors, and wiped the kitchen counter the house still smelled funky, even made me sick to my stomach.

Morning came and I did the usual, prep for work, I felt like I was coming down with something, but that did not stop me from getting on with my day,

" Liyana ukuphi?"
Me: I am at work Ntsika, we talked about this "
Him: wow and you left the very same day when I told you I wanted to introduce you to my family"
I breathe out loud
Me: Ntsika..."
I said softly
Him: mmmm Ungijwaywla kabi yezwa"
He dropped the call in my ear, I breathe out loud and decided to switch off my phone.

The hospital shift was busy as usual till the knock of time came, I wish someone would have told me about being in a serious relationship because I thought I had it all figured out but turns out that I knew nothing.

My relationship with Ntsika had its first period, first pimple pop, first screaming and shouting and banging of doors, 
He's angry at me and I'm also angry,
He looks at me and then clicks his tongue and continue to drive, I want to say my piece but Bhengu has the most commanding voice when he's angry, I can't even say a word out,

" This is what you were so eager to get up too when you kept nagging me, telling me you have work!!!"
Me: Nagging Ntsika wow!"
I jumped out of his car and slamed the door, he drove us to his pant house,
Him: oooh so you have legs to walk away from me when I am talking to you!, damn it Liyana that's below the belt"
Me: you able not disable nxa!"

I jumped in the elevator looking at him, as the door closed when I got inside the house, I took off my jeans that were suffocating me like crazy and I was left with vest and underwear, I ran myself a bubble bath, but I jumped when he banged the front door,

He walks into our bedroom and looked at me, his frown still says I'm angry at you,
Him: so every time we have an argument you going to walk away from me?"
I just look at him and I continued to  walk around the room,
Him: Liyana!"
Me: you have said enough Ntsika and I'm tired "
Him: do you blame me, damn it Liyana!! When were you going to tell me, you bloody working at a strip club?"
Me: I was working at the strip club before you decided to get me fired!!"
I still want to know how he found out but his king with a lot of money, probably paid people to get information about me.
Him: you are my girlfriend do you know what news like this could have done... if the media?...."

Me:Ntsika I am not a King you are!...  You decided to fall in love with a commoner I had a life before you, bills I had to pay so I did what I had to do!"
Him: you had your life... You lived it... But now you have me, which means me and you will never have a normal relationship now!!..."
Me: I'm not one of your possession Ntsika... And stop confusing that with love, because Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation...!!"
Him:...Liya I appreciate everything about you"

Me: then why can't you accept me for who I am not what you want me to be... All I see here is you forcing me to your life, the life I don't know...the life I fear...the life that I'm not even sure I will be accepted in..."

Him: If you think I'm going to apologize for my action? For loving you, forget it!!... Listen here I never told my heart to love you,
But I've found myself in love with you!
And all see in you is women who complete me. . . I don’t mean to be overbearing, but with a heart as big as mine, sometimes it is hard to keep it from jumping straight into your face and latching on for dear life.
I am sorry for being too pushy about the future, but I will never be sorry for wanting one with you. I’m not demanding that you marry me or buy me a set of legs to run after you. I am simply envisioning my life with you and I am looking to see if you are too. Yazi you don't know how excited I get when I envision where life cold takes me, and I plan to take you with me. Sometimes, I may talk about the future “too much??? and it might come across as a little too pushy. For this, I am sorry. You might not be the type of person to talk about these things as much as I do, and this is something that I need to work on understanding. . . "

I breathe out loud looking at him, he ran his hands on his face,
Him: Liya I love you just the way you are, and I know you think I do not see you but I do, I see your inner beauty,  your fears,  but mostly I know that  I'm in love with an Insecure woman"
I bite my lip surprising my tears

Him: Sthandwa sami I did not ask to be a king or passed an interview to have such a high profile position but I was born to lead, so stop my heart for beating for you, for wanting you by my side esihlalweni sobukhosi! you angry I get that but I will not apologize for doing the best that I can to protect us, to keep us intact, and to make sure that nothing or no one gets in the way of what we have. I will not apologize for this, because I love you too much to let us fall apart "

I opened my mouth to say something, but I suddenly felt light-headed, I held on to the vanity table
Him: Liya...babe are you ok?"

He held my waist hugging me from behind, I breathe out loud and rested my head on his chest. he kissed my neck and His fingers feathered over my hips, my stomach. My muscles danced under his touch.
I breathe out loud tried to untangle myself from his hold but he held me tight
Him: this is me, I give love through my actions, my emotions, my words, and my silence. I am an affectionate person both psychically and emotionally... Please give me the chance to appreciate you, to worship you, and to give you whatever your heart desires...
Me: Nts..."
Him: you deserve happiness... this is your time now to be selfish"
He then kissed my forehead and said he will order in while I take a bath,

I dragged my feet to the bathroom and took a long deserving bath, he said way too much and I'm more confused than angry with him now, when I walked out of the bathroom, he was not in our bedroom,
I put on his T-shirt and walked out busy rubbing my eyes, it's high time I told him about my side of the family.

I froze when I heard someone clearing their throat, my eyes almost pop out when I came face to face with her majesty the gorgeous women I only saw on t.v, newspapers, and social media pages. I stood there frozen
" Mama... Please meet Liyana Ziqubu the woman in my life "
The Queen looked at me from head to toe and she then stood up,

" So this is what you get up to in Durban Ntsikayesizwe Bhengu, you neglecting your duties and you have the nerve to introduce me to a naked girl? Have you forgotten who you are? What you are?"
Ntsika: ma..."
Her: I did not come here for this... As I was saying uyadingeka ekhaya!" he looked at me and then shook her head and walked out.
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