Turning Table

Part 10

Part 10

*** everyone else is winging it, I Fake it until you make it***

🌹Nompumelelo🌹

I set in restaurants,  using the free wife googling this Nelisiwe Ngubane, first she still my man now my child? Who the fuck does she think she is,? Don't get me wrong I love Lubanzi but base on our past I know it will take a miracle to have him back, he's a man of principles and if you cheat on him you are history to him, trust me I know I have bared witness to how he treated his first ex-wife, and my situation that leads to our divorce is quite complex because I cheated on him not only was I caught, I came out with pregnancy on the side affair I had... So the man hates me if it's was not for our kids he would have long killed me.

It's sad to say this but I have long, came to peace of any feelings for my ex-husband... God knows if given a small window period to fuck him, I will jump for it, urge but there is this women Nelisiwe!!... She's the one I can't shake.

I'm embarrassed by it. I don't want to be this kind of woman! Here I check her Instagram and Facebook multiple times,  Although I have met her once in the office with Banzi, what an embarrassing moment it was when Lubanzi decide to throw me out like a used condom worst kissed that bitch in front of me...

Well, it was expected he hates me!!

But to see him happy with this woman I just feel my insecurities mount with each glimpse of what I witness, Banzi still loves me that I know, but can this woman be my replacement? I boil with anger as I browse through her page, It doesn't help that she's one of those tall mid skinny types with perfect bone structure and busy social life. Looking at her photos she posts of herself, I fall a little inside. This whole cycle of checking on her makes me feel small, mentally weak, and incompetent, I slam my phone on the table and hold my head...

" Shit!"

" hay I'm sorry I'm late, working for Mpilo is a nightmare"
Me: that busted got me fired and stole my job and destroyed my marriage I hate him! ... Why are you his PA"
She rolled her eyes
Her: because I got bills to pay, and wena stop giving him too much credit, you did that all on your own "
Me: who's side are you on? "
Her: the right side, angithi You do not blame your shadow for the shape of your body, Just the same,  Do not blame others for the shape of your experience...can we move past this please "

Me: I did not call you here for life lessons! "
Her: yeyeye whatever... So how did it go?"
Me: I just lost money again Sam...and this time I don't know what to do, I have no plan or whatsoever... I'm basically fucked!"
Her: but I thought...?"
Me: you thought wrong ok!! I have nothing now, I don't even have patrol money "
Her: Mpume you stole chunks of money from the Dlamini plantation you telling me that within three years you blew it!"

Me: ooh shout it out! for everyone to hear that I embezzled money from my inlaws"
Her: aish sorry "
Me: are you?"
Her: wow! ... I'm not the enemy here you the one that screwed up your life stop blaming everyone and start fixing your shi!"
She took her bag and cell phone and walked out my first thought was to call her back but my pride got in the way, Fuck!

I know Sam back when I was working at the Dlamini plantation, she was just an intern that I hired,  I guess her bitchey ways rubbed on to me, and we started hanging out, she made me believe that with beauty you can get away with anything, and for year's it was a wild ride being on the edge and sneaking around, fucking whoever and pretending to be the good wife when I walk inside the Dlamini house.

I lived a double life for so long till the other side outweigh the other,
I loved the independent me, with no strings attached, of crying kids and over barring husband that I started being resentful of  being Mpume the good wife,
I played Banzi for year's I loved him God know I did and I still do, but I was bored being the church-going wife, cooking and cleaning and cuddling, I wanted to be a free party and get waisted have rough sex and live life like there was no tomorrow, Banzi was too grounded, boring if I may add and he only wanted a good wife in me, something I think I was never meant to become.

" Nompumelelo"
I froze I know that voice, I slowly raised my head and I was meet by his eyes
Me: Thabo "
He side smile, I'm shaking, nervous and I don't know how to react, I don't know if I should hug him or smile or frown, haven't seen this man for over 13 years,
Him: you still beautiful "
I blushed and looked away
Him: Is this seat taken?"
Me: no"
Him: wow... I can't believe it's you "
Me: it's me, you look good yourself"

Him: I know "
Me: still cocky as ever, I see "
Him: old habits die hard..." we both laughed
Me: what are you doing here?  in Durban?"
Him: work "

A light bulb was turned on in my head the minute he said 'work', being an opportunist I always find ways to get myself out of a tight vacuum, so Thabo is a lawyer and  I was just fucked up by a lawyer not so long ago, for old time sake will he take my case if I ask him nicely, but yet again his Thabo and I have a child with him that he does not know about, me being close with him will mess up any chances of winning my family back... decision... decision what do I do? I need Nyembezi for my financial security. Aish but asking Thabo for help is asking for my death certificate...

Him: I heard about the divorce "
I bite my lip looking at him,
Me: ooh "
Now, what do I say? Do I act like I'm hurt, or happy about the divorce seriously I don't feel anything about the break up it happened so what? Shit like this happened to everyone these days, there is no manual on how we must respond when a person says that line
Me: we'll I guess it was not meant to be "

I said looking at him dead in the eyes,
He ran his hands on his chin looking at me, his gaze toward me change from indifference to friendship, to open desire. That’s what I was after, I'm bored, broke and well let's kill time with two birds, I just like how easy I use my telekinesis-like sensation of steadily dragging somebody’s fullest attention toward me and only me.

Power of beauty yes I still got it!

I was only a teenager when we first hooked up,  he is one of the pages in my life that has no Ending, he ghosted me, I got married after so I always wondered what could have been like if he never left.
Might as well see where this conversation will lead, Right now I'm not exactly seeking love, I can’t even say if it's the sex that I want from him, maybe Sex might be a gateway drug for me, a portal to the much higher high if I really wanted to push his button.

Him: so how have you been "
Me: buy me a drink and I will tell you "
He sides smile and called the waiter,
I don't know when or how I mustered Seduction but for me, it's the art of coercing somebody to desire me, of orchestrating somebody else’s longings to suit my  own hungry agenda. Seduction was never a casual sport for me it was more like a heist, adrenalizing and urgent, it's such an adrenalin to break into his deepest vault of someone's desire and steal all his emotional currency and spend it on myself.

If the man was already involved in a committed relationship, I knew that I didn’t need to be prettier or better than his existing girlfriend I just needed to be different. The trick is to study the other woman and to become her opposite, thereby positioning myself to this man as a sparkling alternative to his regular life, it worked with Banzi, I knew Nikiwe was no match when I came to the picture... Delane separated with his fiance when I started fucking him, so whoever is fucking Thabo mmmm lets the game begin.
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