Turning Table

Part 115

***Dead men tell no tales, but evidence do***

🌹Nompumelelo🌹

I find myself silently crying, but in my head, the sobs are loud and hysterical, I keep replaying the scene of what happened, I feel like I'm losing my mind, what has my life become? on one hand, the Dr thinks I am crazy, on the other hand, I am still dealing with this genetic curse that was passed down from my mother to me and to make things even worst im haunted by a ghost,

I look at the nurse that was busy picking up fruits on the floor that was scattered all over, I guess the fruit basket must have been knocked over when I attacked Veli,
I look up, through the small crack of the door when the nurse made her way out and notice that Veli is having the most intense conversation with my Dr. She turned to look at me and faintly smiled as she made her way back inside my room

Her: hi"
I just looked down
Me: I'm so sorry just..."
Her: it's ok..."
There was silence between the two of us, I could feel questions arising within her but she chose to a heavy sigh
Her: what's wrong"
I shook my head avoiding the question, she pulled a seat and set next to me, she pulled my hand to hold it but suddenly frowned
Her: ooh my God you so cold, what is the temperature in this room?"
I just sniffed and wiped my tears
Her: let me get the Nurse to adjust the temperature"
Me: please... Please don't go " it came out as a whisper, as I grabbed her hand tight, she continued to wear a frown on her face, looking at me

Her: Mpume you scaring me now, look at you, you shaking like a leave, it's like you have seen a ghost"
I just pressed my mouth together, holding my sobs in,

Her: talk to me ?"
She said brushing my hand
Her: Mpume I know you went through hell in that house but I can't help you when you continuously  bottling things in?"

I just looked at her, where do I start to tell her this? what would she think of me? I opened my mouth and closed it, in this country  women get raped and beaten up all the time, as long as there are alive there are called survivors or victims, but if you protect yourself and kill a man in self defense tables turn and you become a criminal, Siswati spend years in jail for killing a man in self-defense, so as much as I am tormented by the man I killed every day I am afraid of the consequences,

Her: I get it in your estranged sister, even I don’t know you yet. You’re not much other than a faint idea in the back of my mind. You’re a warm feeling in my chest, strawberry pancakes on a Saturday morning, and summers spent at the pool. Maybe I won’t know you for another ten years, or even another twenty, but that is well worth the wait because I am not giving up on you, I know you have your own flaws and beauties and places that need healing, but I promise you now that I will hold your hand and help you mend every bruise on your soul and help you fly again..."
Me: Veli..."
She faintly laughed
Her: The future is mysterious and frightening to those who are blind Mpume.
They say you never know what the future may hold. They say you can't trust in a happy ending if Our fingers haven't quite touched, and I know I haven't been wrapped in your glory as yet.  But I know what you are, who you are. You are the only family I got in this world and we have a life ahead of us to create that sister bond because You are my  hope..."

Me: karma is a bitch,  you know all
It took was one mistake, and it permanently changed me for the worse, with no way of recovering what’s been lost. it’s really a shame, something that could have been prevented yet it was cataclysmic to my entire existence.
I didn't give a fuck about anyone, including myself. I hate myself for what I have done to my family, my kids, and myself. Each day I strive to get out of this quicksand I created but I get sucked in even deeper, I'm so afraid Veli...this pit that I'm in is too deep"

Her: If a tree falls in the forest, and there is no one there to hear it, did it make any noise? The logical answer is yes, it did, but what difference does it make? Mpume That is essential, what happened to you,  you went through the worst ordeal in life, but refuse to do anything about it. The
perpetrator is your pride,  you were too embarrassed, incompetent, or afraid to come forward. Did you give birth to Nyembenzi? Did the divorce happen, did you lose everything?
Of course, it happened, and it’s something you’ll have to live with, whether you like it or not!
The only difference is, you are the only one who suffers by pretending that you are ok"

I looked down

Her: listen here, I’m a strong proponent for women, and believe women are strong and capable of greatness in whatever they choose to achieve. What I cannot stand, though, is when women are ashamed to claim their power back"

I smiled nodding at her, but my smile quickly turned into a frown as two male cops walked into my room, I know these guys it's the same two officers that have been harassing me with Questions, my heart skip a beat.

" I'm sorry to disturb your visit but can we have a few words with Ms. Msimangu "
Veli looked at the two cops and my facial expressions told her that I'm in trouble, she tried to say no but the detectives insisted and his voice sounded a bit hostile and impatient

Veli: I'm not going anywhere she is my sister, what you have to say to her, you may say it in my presence."
The detective nodded and took out a notepad with a pan,

Him: I'm detective Sean and this Detective Mlangeni we just have a few questions about the night you escaped from the Nqeve mansion "
Me: Nqeve?"
Him: yes Oyama Nqeve"
Me: ooh..."
I felt like an idiot, I slept with a man, even went as far a cohabitating with him but I did not know his last name,

Me: I already gave my statement "
Directive Sean: ya you did but you left just a few parts of the story "
Me: I don't understand"
Him: tell us about your relationship with Timothy Ngozu?"
Me: I'm sorry who?"
Him: the dead man we found with a corkscrew on his neck"
I looked at them my first instinct was to deny everything, which I opened my mouth and did.
" I don't know him"
Him: so do you care to explain why the DNA test shows your fingerprint on the murder weapon? "

I look at Veli with glassy eyes, she popped her eyes open,
" Mpume don't say a word, I'm calling Mzamo! ... "