Turning Table

Part 134

***YES!!!***

🌹Liyana 🌹

I roll over the bed and my cheek landed on my phone, I open one eye to look at the time, it's 5:10 in the morning,  I frown and continue to hold his pillow tight more tight than normal, I survived one night without him, but my heart yen's for him

Even though I talked to him last night till I fell asleep to the sound of his voice, it still felt awkward that I was not under his strong arms, I feel...damn it! Where do I even begin? It’s been one day. One single day. Everything hurts. My heart hurts, my chest hurts, my body hurts. I don’t think I can keep going, I can’t do this without him,

I miss him so much. This house feels huge, so quiet and I keep expecting to see him waltz into our bedroom, with a frown on his face, eyes fixed on his phone in his hand, but when our eyes meet his face will slowly come alive. But this morning he won't, he won't wake me up for breakfast, or make love to me, to kick-start our day.

I sniff as tears start streaming down my face, splashing onto the pillow
Damn this hormones! Why am I even crying?
I placed my face on the wet pillow, suddenly my body start shaking with every raspy sob that leaves my mouth. To say I am miserable is an understatement.
I am heartbroken, boiling with anger, full of emotion, and yet numb to the world around me.

A vibration sensation gives me scared urg, it's my phone, I answer it and only sniff as I look at his handsome face on the screen

" Ndlovukazi yami, crying is bad for the baby "
I don't say a thing but continue to sniff and look at him
Him:sthandwa Sami you making me upset now...making me feel bad for not being there with you"
Me: I miss you..."
Him: I miss you more, but you know we have to do this "
I feel silly now as realization hit me, on the reasons why we have to be apart for a few days, I look down
Him: it's almost time for your prayer and bath and I thought I wake you up and remind you "
Me: I haven't forgotten"
Him: I know but I'm counting on you to play your part, my love "
I nodded in agreement, I noticed that his inside his car, it was way too early for him to be driving.
Me:uyaphi?"
Him:I'm driving to my father's grave"
Me: ooh "
Him: I have work cut out for me here, and what's the best way to start the whole process than to visit and speak to the man who has put me in this situation I'm in "
Me: sounds like you blame him for falling in love with me "
Him: he chose you for me angithi!"

I smiled and sat up straight, now looking at him, he looks drained as if he did not sleep at all, yet I'm busy being all up in my feelings not considering how he feels
Me: talk to me "
He breathe out loud and looked away
Me: Ntsika..." I said softly
Him: it's not a train smash per se, it's more of doing a whole of traditional rituals to prepare me for the seat "
Me: like?"
Him:urg, I don't want to bore you with all of these things, how's my baby doing?"

I breathe out loud, I know that by him changing the topic he just closed that chapter and will not say more about it, that is the man I am in love with, he hates talking about stuff that bugs him, especially to me, as if I can't handle them.

Me: his fine "
I said running my hand on my tummy
Him: be strong for him, you the only source of life that he is depends on for now"
Me: I know "
Him: then you know that the task set for you to do is important for us"
I nodded
Him: You have a great purpose my Queen, I believe that you have the ability to make a positive change in our lives, I see your heart and depths of your soul; the beautiful colors that swirl together and speak a million powerful words. You are so capable of greatness and it is my pleasure to support you along this journey. So don't think we are apart and you are alone cause we are joined in spirit always "
Me: you going to make me cry "
Him: I love you so much Liyana and my purpose is to give you the love, the care, and the joy you deserve... And I will do whatever it takes to have you by my side forever"
Me: I love you too"
I said wiping my tears, he side smile and kissed the screen of his phone,
Him: I have to go, I will talk to you later"

I nodded and kissed the scream too, in return I get to see his beautiful smile that just gave me a fuzzy feeling in my heart.

Well I may not have been woken up by his kiss, his deep stroke when we make love in the morning, but at least I got to see his smile,  his beautiful face that come to life when he say
" I love you "

I have never felt so blessed to have someone love me as Ntsika. He just showed up from nowhere and scooped me up on my feet and made me feel his love, his desire to lead me and guide me closer to Him. God knows how thankful, grateful, and blessed I am to have someone like him love me.

I jumped off the bed and made my way to the bathroom, I brush my teeth and I take a quick shower with shower gel and then after I use isiwasho to cleanse myself, I do my thing splashing water over me and praying at the same time, as instructed by makhosi Mhlongo, with prayer im straight to the point, I pray for protection from harm and evil spirits, my baby, my happiness, my love for Ntsika and I pray for a brighter future. I feel calm as the weight has been lifted off my shoulders the minute I stepped out of the bathroom.

Looking back I'm even amazed from where it began,  From being a girl who was struggling to make ends meet, overwhelmed with debt and family apprehension, and working two jobs to survive.

But Ntsika saw past my pain and gave me this life, Let me tell you something, wealth gives people tremendous confidence, no matter what y'all say. And As I open the curtains and look at the beautiful view I smile to myself,
" Yes! This is my life now " I stood there just embracing this new lifestyle.
Even though I have found out that money doesn't make me happier I've always been a happy person, what it buys me is freedom from worry.
I'm proud to say I'm debt-free thanks to my baby daddy, I have not used my ATM card in months, and I have not worried about rent, food, or bus fees since he brought me cars, I stay in this huge house and I have a housekeeper that caters for me.

I hum a song as I make my way to my favorite place in this house, my walk-in closet, I feel like screaming every time I  open up my closet which has expensive clothes that can feed a whole village!
I'm a girl who has an expensive taste yes I know even when I was broke I tried to have a few expensive items, but now I have a collection of expensive purses ( LV, Gucci, channel, Burberry, Coach, Dooney). Not forgetting I have an expensive taste when it comes to clothing and shoes too. I have over 30 pairs of shoes. I think a nice outfit is not complete without a high-quality expensive purse and jewelry and my man has never been so happy that for once I spend his money and then complain about how rich he is and how we both come from different worlds.
I am grateful for the freedom from worry every day. Outside of that, I'm the same person I've always been, no more or less happy.

Simplicity but class is me, that my outfit for the day, I put on a headscarf as instructed and I decide to finish my look with my engagement ring, I take a picture of my bling, and send it to Ntsika caption "Yes"

I stepped out of my bedroom and make my way to the kitchen
" Morning Mam...I mean Liya "
maChiya says as I walked inside the kitchen, I smiled and greeted her back
Her: you know that when you are Queen it's against our laws for me to call you by your name "
Me: well Ma will cross that bridge when we get to it "
We chuckle,
" Family im home!!!!" A loud voice said and I rolled my eyes knowing that Ntsika is behind this

" don't just stand there come give me a hug "
Me: Dudu!, do you have to be this loud kodwa?"
She bust out and laughed and ran to me and hugged me,
Her: look at you glowing like a real your-highness"
Me: angithi im soon to be the real Your Highness" I showed her my engagement ring and she lost it, she is busy screaming and jumping up and down going all crazy making me laugh like nobody's business
Her: so he proposed when? How?, I need the details tell me the details... " she said dragging me by my hand and making our way to the lounge

Me: well the ring was in my drawer for weeks, he kind off proposed a few weeks back but we were fighting and I was not sure about us...I was just you know what Liyana pack your things and go, but this morning when I spoke to him, something inside of me said 'yes' so that is why I have his ring on!"
Her: so he does not know that you said yes? "
She said popping her eyes out
Me: Ntsika does not need my 'yes' to marry me, in his head I'm already his wife, worst he trapped me with the baby, urg...I'm stuck with him"
Dudu bust out and laughed, as I rolled my eyes at her,

Her: now it absolutely makes sense that your brother is having a meeting with him...I think Lobolo negotiations are being discussed"

Me: WHAT?"
Her: ooh shoot! Me and my loud mouth"
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To be continued