Turning Table

Part 27

***disability is a state of mind**"

🌹Liyana🌹

It's payday and my phone stopped buzzing for a change because I deposited money to my mother's bank account,
I text Mangalisa and ask him if he's coming this Christmas
Him: nop "
I got excited thinking that will chat but my next text was greyed out, I sigh and walked around my station I'm bored and I hate that I drank caffeine this morning and, now sleep is something of a memory to me.

It's so funny that I work so hard that I even forgot that today is Christmas eve,
I breathe out loud and made my way to the Dr restroom, I kept counting sheep's backward till sleep finally script in,

" Liya...Liyana"
Me: what?"
I opened my eyes and noticed one of the nurses standing over me
Me: what? "
Her: your 3 o'clock appointment called and said he is not coming in, "
Me: yes! now can I sleep "
I said pulling the covers over my head
Her: but you making a house call to him "
I slowly pulled down my covers
Me: No!"
Her: yes. . .staff car waiting for you and Dr. Dlamini approved it "
Me: but it X-mas eve "
Him: and you an essential worker you have no holidays so get to it "

She left the room and I furious kicked off the covers,
I know this guy will give me grief,
Through all our sessions he has never cooperated, he hates me, has not done anything I asked him to do, his stubborn and does not want to be touched at all, reason why he comes on time for a three-hour session just to ignore me, I don't know,

The car dropped me off at River Side Hotel, I walk in and the minute I said his name the receptionist scrambled and took me to his suite, I walked in and this room was wow, big and beautiful, the room looked like a presidential sweat I wonder what does he do for a leaving? Besides being a jackass
" hallo "
I said softly as I take grapes that are nicely laid on the counter

I walked outside and found him swimming,  I popped my eyes open, his good, his moving underwater like he a fish, even I can't swim like him, and I'm his  physiotherapist,

I sat down and look at him more like admire him, My first thought about him is ‘mysterious-typical-guy’ who has been winning so many nurses hearts with just a single glimpse since the first time he stepping into hospitals,
I was wondering why dos he has such an effect on every girl he meets? What kind of charm or spell is he giving these women? I should feel sorry for those who have that kind of feeling towards him but how can I   when I'm also one of them.

I think about it over and over again, wondering what is this strange feeling that has been fulfilling my heart recently. Is it how he looks uncommon black hair with fade hair cut, brown eyes, his built, is it in the way you dress or talk that is  Why all of those matters keep haunting me? Am I falling in love?
No, I guess. Maybe I was just enchanted by his appearance. Nothing more. I’m not in love.

But why my heartbeat is racing every time I think of his smile. I wonder if all of that bitterness of his is just a mask, i wonder if actually, he's warm inside. I keep guessing who he truly is, and it stimulates my hopeless heart to know you better. I want to be close to him God I am crazy? What do I  exactly feel toward you? Is that a crazy little thing called ‘Love?’

" how long were you standing there? "
His bold voice makes me stop thinking, I cleared my treat
Me: technically I'm sitting down and enjoying the view "
He lifted his eyebrow and a hint of embarrassment made me wish I did not say that,
I look at him lifting his body and he sits on the edge of the pool, I swallowed as looked at him wipe his face with a towel,
Him: you early "
Me: I'm here now... So why you told me you can't swim when I suggested the water physio"
Him: I didn't say I can't swim I said   I don't want too "

I looked at him as he lifts his leg out of the water,
I was about to stand up to help him but he looked at me and I slowly set down,
Him: so what are we going to do today?"
He said distracting me from looking at how he lifted himself to the wheelchair, he did it without hustle or out of breath, the guy is not paralyzed yes he is but I mean with surgery and rehabilitation he can use both his legs and walk
Me: we going to talk...about your legs they are working! "
Him: I know "
He said wheeling himself inside the room
Me: you have an incomplete spinal cord injury, Ntsika this means you can walk "
Him: I know "
Me: are you even listening to me?"
I said blocking his way
Him: I did four surgeries to get me this far, if I do the fifth one chances are might not walk at all "
Me: that is 50/50 chance "

Him: I'm tired of the pain, rehab, and putting myself through hope ride, I can use my legs to walk small distances and I'm fine with that"
Me: but you could walk "
I said softly looking at him, they say a man is not beautiful but him, wow his just breathtaking
Him; Liyana...I'm still a man with or without my legs I am able not disable, in fact, I love my life just like this...now please let this go"

I stepped back and I looked at him, minutes later he came out of the bedroom all dressed up, he is wearing all black and I just drooled
Him: ooh sure help yourself" I stopped eating and looked at him, as he side smiled

Me: why you doing physio again ?"
Him: because my family is forcing me to it, look what you going to say now I know it so doesn't say it "
He stepped out of his chair and took few steps and slowly set on the couch and looked at me, it's longer than normal and making me hot
Him: come here "
I swallowed and walked towards him and set next to him

" it's Christmas Eve why are you working? "
Me: I have bills to pay "
Him: or you don't have a life you just work to exhaustion so that you would not think about how lonely you are? "
Me:uuuh I'm not lonely "
Him: that is convincing   ...."
I laughed and he joined me,

Me: you talk about family why are you not with them ?"
Him: they not interesting as the person sitting next to me "
I looked down, ok I should be going I don't like what I feel for him, especially after he said that, I'm buzzed battling with my mind. I’m not in love. Hell no. I’m busy right now, I don’t have enough time to be wasted in this kind of situation. Ooh, shit his stuck in my mind. I have the urge to be by his side. . . fuck I am by his side,
Him: Liyana look at me "
I slowly looked up our eye locked and he side smile,
Him: what's stopping you?"
Me: uuuh?"
Him: from kissing me?"
He says coming close to my face,
Me: you able not disable what's stopping you?" I said softly 

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