Turning Table

Part 71

***If the home is a body, the table is the heart, the beating center, the sustainer of life and health.***

🌹Liyana 🌹

I'm woken up by my phone ringing Ntsika was not next to me probably taking a bath,

" hello"
I said rubbing my eyes
" Liya it's me "
I frowned and looked at the screen of my phone
Me: Sam?"
Him: yah...I'm just checking up on you  ...urh mean you left the club pretty upset last night "
Me: it's nothing...I'm fine now "
There was silence on his side while I just bite my lip thinking too,

Him: so you are dating Ntsika Bhengu?"
I felt a lump on my throat just to think that I had a moment with this guy I mean he did not have to tell me that he likes me, he basically showed it all the time, while I was not honest about my true feelings for him
Him: do you know who he is?"
He asked me another question when he realized that I was not answering him
Him: Liya his royalty and people like us don't belong in such like...
Me: excuse me!!?"
Him: all I'm saying is that ...look I just don't want you to get hurt "

I bite my lip thinking about what his mother said last night how she looked at me, I stood up and made my way to the window wiping my now falling tears,
Him: walk away Liya you fragile and not strong enough to face what waiting for you in that house...look baby girl all that glitters he has shown you may not be gold "
Me: i....i...I love him Samkelo "
There was a moment of silence between us after I just dropped that bomb in the midst of the conversation
Him: Liya...we all love the moon and sun but we can never build a life with it... please listen to me..."
He said softly
Me: I have to go "
Him: Liya...why you bringing yourself  heartache by trying to move in a house with wolves instead of running away from them. . .'
Me: it's complicated"
Him: Liya You cannot see no build the future with tears in your eyes...is this what you want to spend your life doing?"

I started sniffing,
Him: Liya you are a very special woman in my heart...I'm not him but I can bring you the joy you deserve...tell me you don't feel something for me"
I kept quiet Sam is the opposite of Ntsika quite kind loving and he loves the simplest stuff his not complicated
Him: I know you love him... But I lo..."
I dropped the call as I had the bathroom door opening I wiped my tears and continued to look outside the window, thinking about what Sam said
" hi"
Ntsika said
Me: hi"
I said not looking at him,
Him: about last night "
Me: I don't want to talk about it "
Him: Liya...we have to, look my mother did not mean..."
Me: she did not even acknowledge my presence... People like me are nothing in her eyes"
I said turning and looking at him, he frowns noticing my teary eyes

He walked close to me,
Him: I will talk to her...please trust me"
Me: Ntsika why are you complicating my life!... You know that that I'm not your destiny... You have a legacy to build and I can't do that with you "
He opened his mouth, but I shut him up by saying
"I'm your little secrete, you meet me in dark, fuck me in your own little private space, take me across the world but not once you spent a day out with me, you tell me you love me, but I can't even tell a living soul about us yet alone post a picture of you and I, I'm more of your mistress then your girlfriend...you say you care about me, but yet this relationship is condemned, you know it I know it! ... God knows I love you but I'm tired of living a lie, I'm tired of thinking that my life is a fairytale, Cinderella meets the prince and lives happily ever after,  in real life that bullshit never happens, we come from different walks of life Ntsika and this right here scares the living shit out of me..."
Him: what are you trying to say ?"

Me: I can't do this anymore "
Him: angizwa?"
He said stepping back looking at me,
Me: I just can't "
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🌹Mpume🌹

Reality kicked in when I saw how badly Ginger was beaten up, I'm shaking and I want to escape, but I'm scared of what he will do to me,