Turning Table

Part 98

*** “Grandmothers are a gift not to be taken lightly***

🌹Rossetta🌹

The house is buzzing, cottons are playing on full blast, the twins are running around not even paying attention to the T.V I have been screaming countless times telling them to stop running, they fight and cry... Jesus this is just too much!

Sandile walks on me answering numerous questions from Zibusiso
" if a whale is a mammal and can't breathe underwater, but lives in the water... How does it sleep because it does not float at night?"
Zibusiso ask me with his big inquisitive eyes fixed on me
Me: what?"
Zibusiso: sharks are predator which eats mammals which are whales, so whales can't sleep on the surface because they will get eaten by sharks, so they dive under to the deepest sea, so how do they sleep
If they can't breath underwater?"
I look at Sandile like what the fuck how on the bloody hell am I supposed to answer that shit

Me: mmmm I remember Mkhulu telling this, konje Sandile the answer to that is?"
Sandile: what?"
I stood up and rolled my eye walking away from the loudmouth, God I need a drink or a walk out of here.

I breathe out loud, I know I'm probably the small minority when I say I'm NOT excited to be a grandparent. I've never really liked children and used to be determined against having any of my own. But mainly because my husband urg that thing was just no father figure. Even though we had Zuko, I vowed not to have another child with him, Looking back, I feel my main goal was to have a balanced life even with a child, and my goal was to raise Zuko to be independent of me, basically, that would have worked out well as a parenting philosophy, although I suspect my interests and freedom were really in the forefront. . . but table turned I never raised or stayed with my son lost years of his life, he grew up in my mothers care and her wisdom. . . which makes me question my parenting skills if I have bloody any?

And now while I'm still struggling to connect with my child, trying this love thing with Sandile, the shooting, with no news of Oyama, if he's dead alive or on the run!  I'm street to the 'T' and  Zoe just decided to hit me with a parenting card, It's official she has made me gran.

Looking after kids it's just exhausting! Not forgetting that I'm still not a fan of kids, and even though I find them adorable, they quickly wear me out.
But the man I love comes with a package, " family and kids " Only this time it actually hit me that, I'll have responsibilities without the "power" to discipline them,  and to make it worse I'm not even sure I want that disciplinarian role.

I love Sandile he is the best partner I could ever ask for but for the love of Christ, I do not look forward to spending all my weekends with his grandchildren, which is what I fear will happen once me and him become really serious.

Frankly, I don't know what this new role of being Gogo u-Rose would end up doing to our traveling plans. I just feel like once again, I'm getting into this barefoot midwife from Ndwedwe... Gogo taking care of kids when I'd rather not!

"They are such a handful I know, but I was hoping that having the twins around  will get your mind off things "
Sandile said as he found me standing by the kitchen counter taking deep breaths
Me: Sandile how is that possible when I don't even know if Oyama is caught or not, I'm on the edge with anxiety  ... "
Him: you beat up the only person who was supposed to give us this news... Now this whole shit is classified "
I narrowed my eyes looking at him,
Me: not funny! "
He laughed
Him: relax will get news soon Langa is digging for an informant"
I bite my lip thinking about how I feel like a prison in this house, I can't go to work or my place because Sandile wants to make sure I'm safe...

I was ok while it was just me and him now the kids are here, with my stressed condition I'm terrified that my temper may go from zero to a hundred in a split second.
But what can I do I'm stuck with them play with them?
Honestly, the twins are not bad,   maybe sometimes when I'm feeling spontaneous and I have put this whole mass behind us I can even babysit for some time, only if asked, yes you heard me, and "Some time" is the keyword here because like I said, kids wear me out and I'm not even young anymore to keep up.

We heard something break in the seating room and Sandile screamed
" Zibusiso!!!"
I placed my hands up telling him I'm not getting involved,
Sandile hugged me from behind and heavy breath
Him: lest go put them down "
Me:by poison or strangulation"
We looked at each other and we bust out and laughed, with him by my side I can actually crack this Gogo thing.
We found the glass sculpture broken scattered on the floor,
" who did this!" Sandile asked with a commanding voice, while the twins pointed at each other

I want to bust out and laugh but  were disturbed by a house buzzer going off
Me: great that must be the nanny "
Him: don't joke like that "
He said running to the monitor but miss Nozibusiso was holding the handle,
" who are you?" She asked
...
" no" She laughed
...
" you funny "
...
I looked at Sandile and he looked at me and strung his shoulders

Him:baby who are you talking to? "
Nozibusiso: Gogo Rose friend"
My heart skipped a beat, Sandile took the phone from Nozibisiso and answered
" How did you get this number?"
...
I quickly called the kids to me, because the tone of his voice scared the shit out f me
Sandile: why?"
...
Sandile: don't bull shit me!!! "
...
There was a long pose as Sandile looked at me busy listening to whatever is said on the receiver, he breathed out loud and made his way to the security monitor on the wall, and pressed a button, and dropped the call.
Me: who is that?  "
Him: Muntu! "
I popped my eyes open what the fuck is he allowing that bitch in!
Him: I think what she has to say you need to hear it! "