Turning Table

Part 95

***cast the first stone***

🌹Nompumelelo 🌹

I found myself in this cold room it's dark but not pitch black it's like all lights are dimmed, I want to walk around but I realized that I'm laying down, a door open or is it light of some sort, but whatever it is it had bought light in this room,

" you look like shit "
The voice made me jump not in a nervous way but enough to give me that knot in my tummy making me almost pee myself. I slowly raise my head up and I was met by his big dreamy eyes, I look around and notice that the room is changing from dark to light and suddenly I have a clear view of where I'm at, I am in a hospital, I frown not sure what I'm doing here but when my eyes meet with his, I did not care or give a shit of the reason, I am sure that whatever sickness that got me here is now gone, just by looking at him and having him by my side.

He's wearing black long sleeves back muscle t-shirt with black jeans and sneakers, he looks different his face is soft and welcoming, he stood by the door looking at me, my first instinct was just to blush, I can not believe that after so many years together he still gives me goosebumps,  I have this inner giggle, the butterflies, lord how I wish you can see how red I have become now, I look like a riped tomatoes

him:how are you? "
Me: I am all good since you are here"
I smile as he walks closer to me, he sits next to me on my bed, his cologne is intoxicating as always, his eyes look straight into mine searching for my soul.
me: what am I doing here? " I ask him,
Him: you don't remember "
Me: no "
Him: do you remember me?"
Me: of cause I do "
I giggled
Him: why did you forget who I am to you along the years then?"
Me: Lubanzi I was young and stupid I'm so sorry... You know If I can turn back the hands of time I can..."

He holds my hand and drops his eyes looking at my wedding finger, I noticed that I did not have my wedding ring on,
him:you know When I met you,  I knew in some way, shape, or form, you would hold incredible significance to my life. I knew you were going to be a constant. I knew you would change me, Then, as I had suspected for years, our relationship changed. We became lovers more than friends.   And I knew, the second I held you close to me, I knew, just like I had known all those years before, that this was it for me. You were it you were All that I wanted, not forgetting the miracle you brought to my life, you made me a wonderful father to our kids and a loving husband to you "

he smiled and looked at me, my heart breaks to million pieces just listening to him, he is not fighting, shouting but his voice has that sadness he may hide it with a smile but I see right through him.
" Remember what I told you on our first anniversary when you said you were afraid of not becoming a good wife to me and your fears that  our marriage may not work out?"
I nodded with tears running down my face
Him: I don't think you remember because along the years you forgot, "
he looked at me and I shooked my head saying no I did not forget, he chuckled shaking his head

me: " I don't think there's ONE secret key in a marriage. I don't think it's at all possible to avoid the change that will materialize over the years. Marriage is a tide of easy waves, then hard waves. It's a constant ebb and flow of happiness, hardships, challenges, adventure, excitement, and every emotion in the book. There are no promises it will be easy, but nothing worth it in life is ... you took me for an air balloon ride that day, you held me tight when I told you I was afraid of heights, you told me that you will never let me go, no matter what challenges we face and taking a bullet for me will be like a walk in the park for you as long as you get to  protect me from harm's way "

He looked down avoiding eye contact with me
him: I meant every word "
me: I know ... Lubanzi " I said softly
him: you gave me the best years of my life but that was not compared to the worst years you gave me "
I swallowed as he let go of my hand,
him: for years I have been unhappy, felt lonely when you were sleeping right next to me, I felt sadness from you, but mostly felt sad For you. For myself. For our kids. For the life that we were meant to have together. . . but I'm here to tell you that it's ok ...
me: Lubanzi no! " I held his face making him look at me but I screamed when he turned his head to look at me, his face was cold, he had blood running down  his face his eyes turned dark, suddenly I found myself in car accident scene the car is rolling and I'm screaming, as the car rolls into the dark whole I see Lubanzi eyes looking at me