I don't own grey's or any of its characters
TW: ED, SH, suicidal
The next morning a nurse comes in with Meredith's breakfast.
"Good morning Meredith! Ready for breakfast?"
"What do you think?" Meredith says while rolling her eyes. "Can you leave?"
"Sorry, I can't. Someone has to be with you while you eat so you don't hide food."
"Can I get a knife to cut my apple?" Meredith decides that the apple will be the only part of the meal that she will eat.
"Uhh, I'm not sure if you can have a knife."
"Fine. I won't eat then. Your choice."
"Ok, I will get you a knife." The nurse leaves with the food and comes back a few minutes later. "Here you are."
Meredith cuts up her apple into slices and then cuts up each slice into little pieces. Slowly she starts eating. Tears are falling down her face as she eats. After a long 40 minutes she finishes the apple.
At this point Meredith is full on sobbing. She is terrified of the calories from the apple. She starts to breathe really fast and her heart also starts to beat very fast. She can't seem to catch her breath because of her body hyperventilating.
"Meredith, calm down. You're okay."
"I'm not okay!" Meredith screams while sobbing. "I'm going to gain weight and get fat! I need this out of me now!"
Meredith is hyperventilating really badly right now. She can't stop sobbing. "I hate myself! I want to die. I'm so fat."
"Ahh, it's ok. You won't get fat." The nurse says trying to calm Meredith down. Meredith's heart rate monitor is going off because of her fast heart rate. The nurse is getting very concerned. "I need you to relax."
"I can't!" Meredith wailed. "I WANT DR. BAILEY!"
"I will page her." The nurse pages Bailey a 911 to Meredith's room.
"I want to die! I'm so fat!" And with that Meredith grabs the knife that she cut her apple with and quickly cuts her wrist. She cut deep so it starts to bleed really badly.
The nurse screams for help and grabs the knife away from Meredith. She quickly puts it out of Meredith's reach and applies pressure to Meredith's wrist.
Meredith is wailing so loudly that Bailey hears her as soon as she is down the hall from Meredith's room. That makes her hurry even faster than she already was.
"WHAT HAPPENED!!!" Bailey yells in the doorway.
"She was freaking out and had a panic attack after she ate her apple. She won't stop sobbing. She cut her wrist badly just a minute ago." The nurse says.
"Why on earth did you give her a knife??!!" Bailey yells. "Go get me a suture kit! NOW! I'll take over from here."
The nurse runs out of the room.
Bailey tries to soothe her intern but it doesn't help. Meredith is still sobbing and still having a panic attack. "Shh, Mer, I'm here. You're okay. You're going to be just fine." Bailey says applying pressure to Meredith's wrist.
"No I won't! I'm gonna get fat!!! I hate myself!" Meredith wails. "Bailey I feel dizzy."
Meredith passes out due to the blood loss and from the lack of oxygen from her hyperventilating.
The nurse comes back with a suture kit and Bailey stitches up Meredith's wrist.
Meredith wakes up a few minutes later while Bailey is stitching her up.
"Good, you're awake." Bailey says.
"I tried Bailey. I tried to eat but it's so hard. I can't do it."
"I know sweetie. You'll get there." Bailey gives her crying intern a hug. "You'll be ok"
Bailey gets in the bed with Meredith and holds her trying to calm her down. Eventually she falls asleep with her head on Bailey.
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