Sick and Tired

Chapter 22

I don't own grey's or any of its characters

TW: ED,SH

Bailey was still laying down with Meredith a few hours later. She had said to not have anyone page her unless it was an absolute emergency. Even then she said to page someone else. She wanted to stay with Meredith. She hated that Meredith has been having such a hard time.

A few minutes later Meredith started stirring. She opened her eyes and looked up at Bailey.

"Hi sleepyhead. Does your arm hurt at all?"
Bailey asked her intern

"Yeah some but it's fine. I'm used to the pain." Meredith said sleepily.

"Is there anything I can do to make it easier for you?"

"Can I go home please?" Meredith asked softly looking at Bailey.

"Sorry sweetie. We can't do that. Anything else you want?"

"No."

"Okay if anything comes up let me know and I'll make it happen."

"Thanks Bailey."

"Mer, do you know why you feel the need to restrict and lose weight?"

"I don't know. I just want to be skinny. I want to be tinier than everyone. I feel better when I restrict and lose weight. I like seeing the number on the scale go down. It makes me feel happy and accomplished and that I'm doing something right. I like feeling in control. Everything's just easier when I'm small. I just want to be as small as possible so no one notices me." She answered.

"Aww Mer. I want you to know that you are not fat, have never been fat, and will never be fat. And even if you were you would still be beautiful. All of us here love you and will always be here for you. We will always support you. I wish you had told us this so we could've helped you before it got to this point."

"I'm used to being this way" Meredith whispered. "I've been like this since I was a teenager. I've never had anyone to help me. My mom didn't care and just applauded me when I lost weight. She didn't care when I was doing badly. I'm just used to no one caring about me."

"You don't have to deal with it by yourself any longer. We will help you get through this. I promise you that."